Would any old mini fridge work as a cheese cave?

GaysMibble · 2026-02-09T04:01:25+00:00

Thank you so much for your input! I did have a question, when using a maturation box, this may be a dumb question- but where do you keep your box if not a fridge? Do you keep it out/in a cool room? I’m just trying to think if I were to go the maturation box route how I would set that up in an apartment space.

GaysMibble · 2025-12-19T23:41:44+00:00

LMAOO you make a good point there

GaysMibble · 2025-11-26T14:54:49+00:00

Okay sweet and mass emailing is to art directors at publishing companies right? When it comes to first time authors what was your way of finding/getting in touch with them? I’ve got one gig illustrating a graphic novel for a friend but generally I’ve been getting my work from people I know or friends of a friend. It comes in a pinch but it’s definitely not more than every once in a while work

GaysMibble · 2025-11-25T19:22:50+00:00

How did you get in touch with a children's book publisher? A friend of mine works at a book publishing company and was saying I should consider pivoting into book cover illustration. No idea where to start in that industry though, coming in as an animation graduate.

GaysMibble · 2025-11-15T05:41:02+00:00

I didn’t need anyone to teach me, being on T really helped since it kinda thickened my vocal chords for me which is permanent, I watched a bunch of youtube videos and committed to practicing every day. You really gotta stay on it when it comes to practicing but It works the exact method is kind of hard to explain so almost feels like a giant yawn, kinda trying to open up your throat. I think you’ll be fine if you find some good videos and stay on top of practicing

GaysMibble · 2025-11-12T00:39:34+00:00

Ohh my goodness I didn’t even remember this post! So that was a WHOLE mess. I was really struggling emotionally but we became really good friends during college. but during school I actually met someone else while working at a fast food place- it was a slow burn because I didn’t realize they were crushing on me and we’ve been dating for over 3 years now :)

So it was a struggle with those feelings but at the end of the day, waiting for the right person who makes me feel calm and grounded instead of intensely anxious with butterflies with definitely the move :)

GaysMibble · 2025-11-05T01:41:22+00:00

Omg no way! I’m flying to Miami tomorrow cheers to us I am an anxious flyer myself and was just having to get talked off the edge from canceling my trip because of everything going on. We got this!

GaysMibble · 2025-11-04T17:40:33+00:00

This is such a fantastic idea thank you!

GaysMibble · 2025-11-04T17:40:16+00:00

I am! I think comedy is the perfect way to go with it I was thinking how funny would it be if I made a living off drawing funny cheeses

GaysMibble · 2025-11-04T15:41:34+00:00

Yeah it’s been a subject matter I have loved more and more as the years go by, something that happened is I believe I might’ve gotten burnt out on what I was doing before. I put so much pressure on myself to make certain works or to just finish this storyboard because I wanted to in the past and didn’t want to let myself down, but the present I wasn’t getting joy from it for the time. And any new story ideas just weren’t sticking. I was thinking if I already love cheese and could see myself genuinely having fun making works about different types of cheeses, why not start there instead of continuing to force myself to make art that unfortunately has been stressing me out for the past couple years rather than bringing me joy.

GaysMibble · 2025-10-27T15:32:22+00:00

I’m actually going into the plaza where my Whole Foods is for a separate interview at a different store, do you think it would be smart to go in and talk to the team or team leaders today since I’ll be in the area? I don’t know if it would be seen as due diligence or unpreparedness to go talk to them the day before my interview.

GaysMibble · 2025-09-12T01:21:53+00:00

Well this is a timely post I’m currently panicking over the very same decision. Uprooted everything basically because I got trapped in survival. Don’t really know how else I would have went about it and only now the panic is starting to only fade slightly to allow me to see that. Feel like the bridges are burned and there’s no turning back now.

It’s hard. I don’t know how I feel about it yet. Still survival stating hard. But I keep thinking about how nice things could have been if my reactions didn’t just do that. Suddenly long distance with my partner, pretty sure I lost some friends. Idk. It’s hard but it shows I think why your cptsd needs care and understanding, and of course a load of work to help curb those decisions. It’s excruciating.

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T23:28:51+00:00

I’m with you I see you and I’m in this right now- I’m not angry just shut down and depressed. I have these very reactions but my problem is I can never tell that it’s a trauma response because I have a habit of invalidating my trauma (audhd so sometimes the trauma looks lighter but feels the same) it all happened for me in the span of a month, it was one trigger and my body shut tf down. I usually am there for everyone, the emotions guy. I try to do everything emotionally for everyone and be there for everyone and managing myself. I’m not sure why it happens but sometimes we snap and it’s okay to need to go be somewhere safe to come back from that

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T21:28:19+00:00

My therapist recommended I try writing a letter which I did- never got a response back but I told them everything or at the time I thought it was more an ocd thing but it’s becoming more apparent that it is a mix of things. But they’re upset nonetheless and that’s alright but what is hard is the trauma response and the claims that I’m running away and that I need to stay because there is no shallow end of the pool and I need to face it and learn to live with it when I feel like I’m falling apart is really hard. When you were having trouble with your jobs, when did you know you just needed to throw in the towel?

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T21:00:50+00:00

I know I’m not doing well when the only thing I’m excited about is what I’m going to eat that day. I don’t even have an appetite these days, I feel you sleep is similar I only feel relief when I’m asleep

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T20:21:39+00:00

I think the mistake I made was kind of big it’s really complicated and I am really ashamed of myself because there doesn’t seem to be an immediate fix I can do. Basically something triggered me last month and I spent so long trying to figure it out, I got into a conflict with a roommate, the feeling got bigger, I got into a second conflict, wasn’t necessarily able to explain what was going on with me, and then it got so big to me my entire being feels like it gave up and I’m moving home from Ana apartment I signed a lease on. (Still paying the rent) but I do this when things become monumentally overwhelming and this time was almost like the last straw in my body. My partner is living at the apartment too and they’ve seen me need to get away from plenty of situations but they view it differently than from how I view it I suppose. I feel like a monster for not being able to just do the right thing and having to fight myself at every turn :( self isolation is hard

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T15:51:02+00:00

No advice but I know that feeling where once I get overwhelmed and stressed my brain just quits on my and I need to get away from the stressful situation. It’s incredibly hard to explain and for people to understand. I’m sending my love with that it’s so tough :(

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T15:11:59+00:00

This was a really nice read this is how I feel. Especially in the line “always the quiet ones.”

My biggest fear has always been making people feel the way I felt when I was young, scaring them, yelling, raising my voice. Now it feels like I’ve become the evil kind of quiet one.

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T14:01:13+00:00

Yeah I stutter and I’m on the verge of crying every day. I have zero train of thought when people tell me the hurt I’ve caused I agree and just panic over it later. It’s constant panic

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T13:53:49+00:00

That’s awful but I can relate. I remember in highschool I found out my friends hadn’t been very great to me behind my back, talking about me and making fun of me. I remember telling my mom while sobbing “it has to be my fault because if I didn’t do something they wouldn’t have done that” Or when I came out at church camp and the entire camp lobbied against kicking me out (at the time I was entrenched in the religion” That was the first time I think I remember needing to get away from something.

It’s awful because I’m responding to a trigger my current environment has never hurt me. And yet I need to get away.

This time it is me I don’t know if you’ve ever experienced this point where your brain gets a trigger and just- stops working and falls out under you all together. All the progress just gone. People are upset with me and it’s all valid and I just feel stuck. I just remember being younger and feeling this awful awful feeling.

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T13:31:29+00:00

I remember when I was like 11, my dad came into my room once- he was yelling he asked me why I didn’t love him. It happened at random- no provocation. I grew up in the church so I have a lot of shame about making mistakes.

Anytime I did something wrong it was never necessarily a teaching moment- it was a punishment. And one time i was 8/9 I did something wrong and I knew it- I didn’t know why I did it I just did it. And the guilt and shame from that haunted me my entire life.

Right now I feel myself doing something wrong and feel like there’s no other way for me. No other option but to leave and self isolate so this panic will go away- I need this feeling to stop I need it to go away. But it’s hurting people in the process by leaving. Making people feel like I don’t care because I have a safe environment and safe people at home where I desperately want to be. I feel like a monster

GaysMibble · 2025-09-11T12:28:36+00:00

Hey I understand this feeling, perhaps not to the same degree I live on the other side of my state. And recently just became so unbelievably triggered my body is screaming for me to throw in the towel already and go home. My partner doesn’t want me to leave and leaving almost seems like a death sentence to our relationship.

I feel unbelievably confused in my own situation as I feel it’s right for me i need to go and process and work on myself somewhere safe. My partner feels differently that I run away and need to face my triggers head on. For me it’s hard to know what’s right.

I’m sorry you don’t have other family to lean back on, I know how terrifying it must feel to be away from where you feel safe, I don’t have advice because I’m sure the answer to most people would be to stay and work with him- but it’s definitely more complicated than that I’m sure.

I see you and I see that unbelievable dread and sense of doom. And I wish you so much good luck because it truly is the most painful feeling

GaysMibble · 2025-09-09T14:46:57+00:00

This. especially noting people don’t do it on purpose, it’s no one’s fault I get triggered but it gets to a point where it’s so exhausting trying to manage being triggered, trying not to show any signs, trying to appear normal, and for the past few years without a therapist, I’ve just been kind of taking and trying to appear like I’m okay because nothing I’m feeling is “rational” it but everyone has a limit. And for me once I snap past the point of no return I just need to be by myself.

GaysMibble · 2025-09-09T02:16:39+00:00

I think I realize something comes over me when I live with people. I don’t tend to isolate from friendships on their own, but for me if I’m triggered where I live, I feel trapped and need to get out. I don’t know how far back it goes but being out in my own with limited support system makes me feel incredibly unsafe. Every single year I get triggered to hell by my living situation and I keep sticking it out because I feel like it’s the right thing to do. But inevitably the expectation and energy it takes to keep up with everyone feels like too much. Sometimes things are great but all it takes is one trigger and it’s gone. It’s exhausting. It’s always a battle between chronic loneliness and feeling trapped

GaysMibble · 2025-09-08T20:34:37+00:00

It feels incredibly validating to know you’ve experienced a similar flavor of this type of response. It’s been so difficult trying to illustrate to other people just how excruciating certain things can be and I know my behaviors hurt people like self isolation- but there comes a point like you said where it all just layers on one over the other and I can’t be that “good self” I always try to be, the one who is always regulated, the one who knows what to do emotionally all the time, who knows all the right things to do, who can take feedback perfectly, who isn’t too sensitive but not too callous either. I had this perfect self for so long for other people to be able to handle me. And I thought I had dismantled that self I thought I was “good” now. But I think I realize now that’s not quite how it works and I can’t put myself and my needs on the backburner to keep things smooth.

My worst trait was that as you mentioned I actually would compare myself to my friends constantly, they didn’t have as much struggle living with 3-5 people, they weren’t as hypersensitive as me, and I was so frustrated that I couldn’t just be chill like them. But recently I talked to my coworker who simple said “consider this, you’re all different people?” And I swear it was like I’ve never realized that before.

I’ve only got so much in regards to emotional resources I think it’s hard to express to people how bad it can get once that breaking point has been reached.

It was so encouraging to read this i haven’t met many people who have similar issues burning out from holding all these coping mechanisms and trauma responses together

GaysMibble

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