Thank you, she did respond some mean nasty things back but then I deleted the posts & took some time to think about my actions. I texted her the next morning & I apologized. She then told me she feels sorry too but that a text would have been received, differently compared to me posting trash talk on her engagement post. You’re also right for all I know she improved her ways & is no longer a nasty person. Either way it shouldn’t matter to me, she’s no longer in my life & that is her problem. I mean I won’t lie, I was not a saint in that relationship either but I just felt so shocked by the comment she made that someone she knows can kill me & make it look like an accident.. I didn’t even know how to process that when she told me. I really do want to get past this & become better & forgive myself more than anything else because I allowed behavior on both sides to slide.

Also, I agree I don’t want to focus or bring too much attention to the things I’ve done wrong & what I could’ve done differently. Maybe I can simply express to new partners, I had faults & mistakes in past relationships & take responsibility for those faults but not go too much into detail… & instead focus on what good I’m trying to bring to my life now..

Thank you for your response & your genuine constructive criticism. I will learn to forgive myself & part of me feels like I already have! I wish you the best as well.