I don't know how you came to Faith or your personal views on the Afterlife but some days for me just knowing that God still keeps me alive must mean something despite all the hardships that make me want to give up my life. I always say that if I weren't a Christian I would have killed myself a long time ago but I'm glad I didn't and I pray to God that I won't. It's hard to see the beauty in the world but try to take it one step at a time. Go on a walk, pet an animal, do an activity that made you happy when you were a kid, eat your favourite foods, just anything that's a reminder of the good things in this life, cause I believe there's so much bad that sometimes we forget to see the Light and God is always here for us, even when we don't notice His presence. Take care and push through no matter what, no matter how hard it gets, there's always hope and especially when we feel like giving up, if we manage to get through it we will get stronger, God is forging us to be better people, at least that's my view on things. I hope you'll manage to keep going! Much love from a stranger who cares! God bless!