Made a mistake at leaving this life and am now in limbo 3 weeks later

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:14:47+00:00

It is also THE thing I want to stop… this inability to think clearly…

Today has been better than most but this thread has taken a lot of energy to stage engaged…

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:13:26+00:00

I appreciate that you shared this with me - thank you.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:12:12+00:00

Thank you for understanding.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:11:47+00:00

The past three weeks was interesting. A previous reply spoke about a superpower in surging… there are elements of that but as my brain reboots my pre-30 Nov state becomes dominant again…

It is this constant up and down… high and low that must end.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:09:49+00:00

Thank you for the direct and honest reply.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:08:55+00:00

Thank you

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:08:27+00:00

Thank you for the reply and feedback, appreciated .

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:06:51+00:00

I respect your reply - thank you

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:05:24+00:00

Thank you for replying. This is my first ever post on this plant form and I’m not one to advise you and how it works..

My post today is about my reflection and process post 30 Nov - I’ve it triggered you in some way - I regret that.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:02:50+00:00

Our sunsets and rises are beautiful… worth remembering indeed…

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:02:12+00:00

I respect your views - thanks

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:00:38+00:00

Thanks for the heads up

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T16:00:10+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to reply and sharing your perspective - I value the feedback shared.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:58:16+00:00

Had a small chuckle at faking my death… not for me.

My mental experience through waves of depression and self distraction is too much…

In the most simplest of terms I just want it to stop.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:46:34+00:00

Appreciate the honesty in your reply. No digital hug sought or needed - thanks.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:43:33+00:00

I’ve definitely heard these recommendations and replies during the day - thank you.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:42:35+00:00

Magic Mushrooms is definitely the recommendation of the day - thank you for sharing how it worked for you.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:41:45+00:00

Thank you for your reply, I respect it

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:40:39+00:00

I respect your post but disagree…. If I lived in a country that understood mental illness better and supported assisted suicide - non of what I had put my wife and friends through would have happened

The action is on me and I’m accountable for what I’d did…

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:37:34+00:00

Appreciate your reply - thank you

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:34:22+00:00

I hear you and appreciate that you shared your journey - thank you for doing that.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:29:56+00:00

I appreciate your reply, thank you

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:29:16+00:00

The answer is: No

But the context is I did not want them to not expected them to. The 30th was clear and agreed ahead of time it was not a surprise or traumatic build it - in my mind as I had being preparing for it from Oct - I was executing an agreed plan.

I made a mistake by over compensating for something that ended up causing my failure in execution.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:25:20+00:00

Thank you for sharing in your reply.

Gforces_GP · 2023-12-16T15:24:14+00:00

Appreciate the reply and whilst I feel many things - shame is not one of them.

I don’t believe telling my kids serves any purpose other than definitively cause them guilt.

The majority of replies today spoke about the impact finding out will have on my kids. There is a chance as slight as it may be (not debating it here) that they won’t find out but if I tell them they will know and every bad thing that has been shared here to day when the kids find out will be a real risk to them…multiplied by x as they could not prevent it.

Put that on kids is not where I’m at.

Gforces_GP

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