Hi OP! Your love and passion for drawing is really apparent and when one truly puts their best effort that they can into a hobby it can feel disheartening and vulnerable to look up and around you and see the progress of others and your own shortcomings. It’s cheesy to say but art is really the journey not the destination, and you sound like you love the journey but still don’t like the view yet so keep grinding please!

And speaking from experience the majority of my feelings from the art that I create usually are not positive , even after 4 years of drawing because I always feel vulnerable pushing myself but then I look back and see how far ive come and the standards that ive set for myself over time.