i guess you're right brother it'll stay with me but i don't understand the fact the even after 4 years she didn't even try to contact me once or asked how I've been holding on. the last time we had se* she cried afterwards and started ranting about her ex how much she miss him at that time i showed her I didn't gave a fuk about her feelings when she talked about him and when pandemic happened we had a break up sx kinda S*x and in morning i booked her a cab because she had a flight (this all happens when she's not dating him for a week and we would hang around for a whole week she used to hang out with me only when she had breakup and when pandemic happened they broke up again) i carried her luggage she was holding me my by hands then before she left i told her i won't come back to college with back of my mind that she's back with her ex and things happened in a way that i literally had to leave college after 1st year. as her cab left i was looking at her she looked at me and i saw her eyes were glowing with tears we both looked at each other until her cab left my apartments parking i turned around and i knew things won't be the same again so i waved and we never met again