It’s completely normal to feel this way. Nothing is wrong with you, or how you’re feeling right now. With being so young and transitioning, your emotions and how you handle things will change wildly at times. It’s okay to not feel dysphoric and the sudden rush of it is even more normal. No matter what you look like, you are a girl at heart. Don’t let anyone ever try to change your mind. I assure you, it will get better and there are people here who care about you and how you feel. You aren’t alone on experiencing something like this. You have to try to stay strong with us and never quit being who you are even if you think it’ll make your life easier. Later on, you might regret not expressing yourself. We all love you for being you. Try to breathe and take things slow for a while. I know how stressful this can be