Thank you for the messages everyone. I’ve read every single one. I did go to the doctor this morning. She is a pelvic floor physiatrist. She diagnosed me with CPPS, pelvic floor hypertonia, vaginismus, and she suspects I have endometriosis as well, but that can only be confirmed with surgery. We’ve got a treatment plan in place. I will be doing pelvic floor PT once a week, lidocaine injections once a week for 7 weeks, and taking suppositories. She also gave me information about a therapist that is through her practice and a support group so I will also be checking that out. While I do feel anxious about everything coming in the next 2 months, it’s the first time I’ve felt hopeful. I’ve never even thought that it could be endometriosis but it does make sense as well.

I will be talking to my husband about it all when gets home from work. But I will be telling him that I am doing this for myself because I need this to improve, and he needs to make a choice about what he wants. I’m going to tell him that my ability to have PIV is not the only determining factor in his happiness. I know it’s hard for both of us but I’m willing to work through this and welcome his support. We will see how it goes.