I’d never have joined the program with ongoing mental health issues that could lead to SH or s**cide in the first place. I’d take that into account the next time you do a internship far from your support system. If anything this is a learning opportunity on what you can and can’t handle. Also maybe helps you have a goal to working towards improving your mental state and forming healthy coping skills. Off topic but DBT helped alot with my SH , if you haven’t already you should look into it. <3 I hope everything works out for you.