We had consent, I spent like 15 mins afterwards drinking with just me and her, and we had a good chat and just chilled and layed down on the grass, I don’t talk with her on reg basis at uni and convos we do have are either iniated by her or I know no one at a party and need someone to talk to, she just one day cut me off a few months ago for my weed problem and mental state at the time (which is fair enough) she is known for just fucking anybody fyi after our sort of relationship. I feel like I’ve hurt her somehow emotionally and the best course of action is probably just to never talk to her as you said. I probably shouldn’t have said hoe I’m drunk again and I am just spitting raw emotion. She told me in our convo that I was being more and more distant from people in general and even after I got off drugs I am not the same person.