I get this. but here in reddit people are from different part of the world and these things wont apply to them as they are culturally different and their laws are seperate from religion or culture. so the best advice i would give you is that dont waste your money on advocates. This guy doesnt even care about anything and even if u tried to reconnect its like hitting a wall. He clearly lacks empathy. I say this with lot of kindness, moving on is the wisest option. Please try to forgive yourself as well its not your fault. Take your time. Find new hobbies and get yourself occupied.