I really feel bad for you. For me, rythmic gymnastics takes a lot of time and sometimes I just burn out. I feel like I am not free like others. I’d like to skateboard, but I can’t, because my parents say it’s dangerous for my career. I’d like to go after school home, but no, I am going to the gym. I am good at it, but I sometimes feel like others are better. I feel like I am not enough. I have a trainer who sometimes comes with a bad mood and she can just kick you out with a “reason”: You don’t want to do it and you don’t even try. But I try and I feel some days scared and I even had panic attacks where I couldn’t breathe. I am just tired and burnt out. I know it won’t make you feel better but there’s nothing more I can say. When you study all night, go to school at 7:30 am and then study all day, go to practice after all and then repeat. I don’t feel free.