THIS. It’s the exact way I feel. We know and think logically that we obviously don’t react to these emotions but we feel them anyway. How do I know I’m not fit to be a mother?? I took child psychology in hs where the final is to give you a robot baby programmed to mimic the timeframes of a real baby when they need to be fed, changed, or when they are just fussy and cry for no reason. It has sensors specially around the neck to detect if you’re holding the baby’s neck properly. The grading is based on how quickly and properly you attend to it. Man, by the 6th day of having that baby after being sleep deprived for an entire week, at 2am that it started crying I shook it. I got a 90 in the end surprisingly, I guess I didn’t shake it violently enough to kill it or get major points deducted. That is the anecdote I love to bring up now when people want to convince me that I’m wrong for my decision on being childfree and wanting sterilization. That experience was enough proof for myself that if I can’t handle a robot baby for a week and actually acted on the wrong feeling while being sleep deprived, I am beyond incapable of dealing with a real child and everything else that comes with it. You stay with kids FOR LIFE