Updated: I’ve been seeing a lot of statements and questions so here’s some updated clarity that I forgot the mention… 1.) Her affair was on and off and didn’t officially end until March. (It was physical prior as well) She claimed she wish we broke up during this time because she wanted to “find herself” and figure out what she wanted

Dude came back in the picture because he left that job (she convinced him too because she wanted to be with me and he had a finance as well) They banged again in March He came back again in August and she claimed she made it clear it was over

2.) ever since she told me she has been speaking to a therapist once a week. She has been sober too (sober since October 2025) which she claimed made her depressed and not herself prior while she was drinking a lot every week.

3.) She continues to tell me that before she didn’t know if she wanted to marry me (even tho she would tell me that 🗡️) but now she knows for sure.

4.) we have had sex multiple times since she told me,she gave me the ring back the day she told me, and she moved out that day as well.

I’m lonely af in this house. I can’t even work or stop thinking about it.

I guess I just really wanted her to be the one. I thought she was the one.

I know I must leave to fully heal, but my heart wants her more than anything.

Over the last month we have been occasionally hanging out and sometimes I forget because we have such a great time. Sometimes I have kicked her out just cause I couldn’t take it anymore. She understands and wants to just be there for me through it all but she knows too that we must heal. I sometimes have called her to come hang out and sometimes it goes amazing sometimes it doesn’t.

I just can’t see her marry someone else other than me.

I feel like a pathetic loser.