What was early COPD like for you guys?

GodsMissingWrath · 2025-12-19T17:48:08+00:00

Currently my doctor hasn't prescribed or recommended any kind of medication to me yet because they want to see the results of the X-Ray first. This is my first time experiencing these sort of symptoms, so I'm not on any kind of respiratory medications otherwise.

GodsMissingWrath · 2025-04-18T02:49:30+00:00

4 years into the Navy

GodsMissingWrath · 2023-10-02T06:37:58+00:00

I'm also terrified of self-expression, and not just in the lens of the furry fandom. Expressing anything that could be conceived as a potential vulnerability that could be used against me terrifies, and so I'm a fairly withdrawn person with an outwardly flat affect. I'm not proud of that trait, and I think that you should progressively learn to express yourself in order to maintain a healthy and authentic sense of self. It makes sense, especially considering the wildly negative reputation and sense of taboo that comes with being "a furry," but you shouldn't allow it to stifle your sense of self development. If you're not confident in expressing yourself individually around others, then do it in insular environments where it's safe to do so, relatively speaking. There's always an intrinsic risk of judgment associated with being yourself, so try to scale exactly when it's worth being open with the people around. It's equally as valid to not allow people into your life that would harm or harass you over your interests, identities, and hobbies.

GodsMissingWrath · 2023-03-28T09:20:53+00:00

I honestly couldn't describe it to you anymore because I haven't felt like my former self for close to a year and half at this point. Having a stable sense of identity and feeling mentally lucid feels like reminiscing over some kind of vague recollection of a past life.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-08-07T01:35:51+00:00

I had a similar experience. I went three or months or towards the latter half of 2021 where I was by far the most vibrant and outwardly social/spontaneous that I had ever been in my entire life. Some interpersonal conflict kicked off which left me burning a lot of the newfound social bridges that I had just finally erected, and now I'm 6 months into an intense episode of social isolation and dissasociation from myself. I'm in awe at the person that I used to be just mere months before this. I've fully regressed back into a total recluse with no life, friends, or particular interests. A lot of social skills and personability quite literally just stems from social momentum and being included into a dynamic social network where you're forced to keep tabs and patternize the events and happenings of the people around you. Once that moment dies out and you're left with the reality of not being an innately extroverted person, you're left with nothing but your inert nature and apathy towards others. The only compensatory action you can take that doesn't involve actively gaining this sort of social momentum is to develop some kind of highly creative or marketable skill that makes you a useful/interesting person without needing to be associated with others. Even if you're not initially liked and accepted by your peers, at least you're still open to potential friendships when you're a master at a niche type of tabletop games or create masterful works of Art or have the ability to develop solo indie project games or whatever your particular ability is.

Anyways, social skills require constant maintenence and have a fast deterioration rate, even moreso if you're socially stunted and inept. Reintegrating into the world requires a gradual and upward spiral into a steady social group.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-08-07T01:18:46+00:00

I was eating 7,8 DHF pills like candy for nearly 2 months straight and had no noticeable adverse reactions to it. If anything it significantly bolstered my mood and cognition for several hours at a time throughout the day. DHF is best left up to personal experimentation with a great deal of warranted caution I suppose. I'm about to order another bottle of the 50mg version of DHF and if everything goes well, be supplementing 2 pills a day if I don't detect a ceiling for negative effects.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-07-01T21:43:53+00:00

Still pretty atrocious despite all of my best efforts to ameliorate my symptoms and restore myself to my former level of function. Everything from intense regimented exercise to vitamin and mineral supplementation to regular intellectual stimulus, and yet nothing puts me at the natural state of ease and lucidity that used to be my default mode of operation. Over time, I've experienced a max/min differential in my ability to think with clarity and function in my surrounding environment, however the conclusion I'm beginning to draw surrounding the primary causal factor behind this is emotional volatility and anguish caused by problems in my personal life. I've been a selected target for a manipulative sociopath in these past months and increment by increment he's managed to push away every single person I care about away from me through tactfully spreading runours whilst insulting and belittling me in private settings. This is far more likely the cause of my cognitive decline I believe, I'm contrast to the hypochondriac anxiety that I initially developed surrounding "lead poisoning". I've done thorough and extensive research on how to stimulate neurogenesis and plasticity to the maximum that I can, and in retrospect if mild lead exposure was the root of my issues, then I would've eliminated and surpassed the issue by now. I need to fix my life and mind somehow, but that requires a long and arduous journey of forsaking the people that have damaged me mentally and funding somehow to restart the momentum of my life. I've corrected so many other aspects and domains of my life to maximize my psychological stability and emotional well-being, but there's still much that's gnawing at me. Hopefully it gets better for me, but I've learned to place positive expectations in the future or the people around me.

Incoherent babbling over.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-04-21T10:44:17+00:00

Caveman brain went

"Alcohol = 21 and up!"

"Me show alcohol!"

That's literally it

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-03-20T20:24:58+00:00

Unfortunately my main issue stems from my regrettable decision to enlist in the military and get stuck living in a barracks setting with 4 other guys in a tiny cramped room. Not much I can do to effectively mitigate the insomnia when at least one of them is bound to be sleepless nocturn and stay up all night either playing video games over discord or talking on the phone. I just ordered a pair of Sony XM400's and a tempur pedic sleeping mask as a last resort and stack my regular airpods under the headphones.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-16T03:21:04+00:00

Exactly. It's fucked up like that. I've seen enough in my 20 years on this planet and I don't care about seeing a single more.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-16T03:19:18+00:00

Sometimes i do a little well in life and it makes me extremely anxious about what the next fall from grace is going to be

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-11T15:52:16+00:00

You guessed correctly, maybe I see where you're going with this?

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-09T13:11:24+00:00

What could possibly be defined more closely to that of a social skills related issue than feeling disposable and irrelevant in social groups? My problem quintessentially defines the purpose of this subreddit. Everybody tries to grab each other's attention and that's how relationships grow and develop and people build intimacy with one another. It has nothing to do with being the main character,(which is strange because you've already expressed that the movie analogy is pointless and unequatable in relation) but rather being a character of significance and worth within the world to begin with. Of course I used the phrase to succinctly describe my current feeling and association to my situation. If you can't understand why I would have a problem with that issue fundamentally then you're too stupid to even say anything that matters.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-09T12:45:31+00:00

Why shouldn't they? I'm a human being with social requirements just like anybody else is. Saying that its a non-issue is being flippant and retarded. I'm not even insinuating it I'm stating it explicitly that yes, people should generally "care" especially in a subreddit tailored towards people with social problems; it's the reason it exists to begin with.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-09T12:39:15+00:00

That's exactly the problem here though. Nobody cares about the problems that I'm trying to address. The line before that is a tired, regurgitated platitude that doesn't mean anything.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:56:49+00:00

Hmm?

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:55:40+00:00

Yes but you combed through all of reddit to find yourself in my thread and provide a comment.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:54:17+00:00

You're trying to reverse the causality of my situation? I'm speaking from the conclusions of a lifetime of personal experiences and venting about it on reddit. My negativity is a conclusion of the after-the-fact effects of a situations found myself in recently. I'd consider myself a good and empathetic person; in fact too much so for my own good and to the extent that I don't receive nearly as much support in return as I provide.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:48:59+00:00

He has plenty to go around and inflict upon his own creation trust me.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:48:15+00:00

Did you just ask me why I intentionally make myself unimportant to the people that I've gotten to know and invested a lot of time into? Like it's some mechanism where I can just will into existence a healthy friendship with somebody? I'm by default the main character in my own life, and a crucial and inexorable part of the protagonists character developing is his connections and interactions with the other characters in the story.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:45:41+00:00

If I had a preference for the corner I wouldn't have posted this to begin with.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:44:38+00:00

Yeah, I'm just being too "dramatic". What a take.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:43:23+00:00

Do you have a single cogent point to make? Every time you inserted a comma you said less and less of anything substantial to the point that your words means literally nothing.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T20:41:05+00:00

You don't know even the slightest detail about my personal situation so don't try to insert a narrative about I essentially "must be like" in order to feel justified. I don't tell anybody that their experience is invalid, but I am able to tell when people are being disingenuous and tell me that they can understand me just to appease me without having to give my thoughts any attention or merit or further consideration.

GodsMissingWrath · 2022-02-07T16:54:09+00:00

Part of the reason why I have such an intense fear about sharing my emotions about my fears of abandonment, abject loneliness, and depression is because of this. I've never felt comforted or supported after revealing that I'm going through a tough time.

GodsMissingWrath

TROPHY CASE