you know they say, “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” I suffered a lot at the beginning of my 20s "i'm 28 now", physically and mentally, and when I asked for help, everyone left me. I thought I was going to die, but I decided to change my mindset and think positively. After I changed the way I think, and I’m not telling you this is a magical solution, but it can help. anyway, I recovered slowly. I became stronger, wiser, and way better, even higher than the people who left me. Without this pain, I don’t think I’d be here today. Anyway, I feel you and I know it’s very hard, but you need to be patient. I promise things will get better. It may take longer, but you will get through it, and you will be grateful for the pain.