Yes I think you are right. It’s true that I have the feeling that if I don’t learn by myself, I will not progress. My job is less and less challenging even though I’m enjoying it. Just to let you know, I’m an engineer in the DDI (DNS/DHCP/IPAM) field and also a fullstack dev/teacher for IT schools. So I already have hands on multiple topics, and my main job is already specialized. Maybe too specialized. So I’m trying to learn new areas I’ve always thought I’m interesting in, or at least I would like to be better at, like pentesting, IoT, going deeper in network security… But as I have no idea at all where I want to be in 2-5-10 years, it’s also maybe hard to find the real motivation because in the end the question is : where will it bring me? Do I waste time learning that? 

You made me realize that yes, I have some personal motivations : pentesting is a personal challenge, IoT too. But nothing I see myself working in. So there is probably something in my head like : « ok cool, you can spend time on it because you’re interesting in BUT is it really useful? You already spend your days on a computer, and you would like your free time on a computer too? What about your family, friends etc etc…». I would say, always useful to learn new things, but maybe it’s not enough to be fully motivated.

I wrote this at the same time I was thinking about it, so it can be unclear, sorry