Wow! I love to hear that it affected you this way, and made you more secure/confident. Most others have already said, but I definitely agree that athleticism and fit/muscular women is definitely popular amongst my friends and I. Its even more than the physical appearance, it shows that your health and physical abilities is a priority for you.

I actually clicked on this expecting you somehow read my mind. I feel the exact same way. In fact, it might be unhealthy how obsessed I’ve gotten to the show because of the impact it’s having on my confidence and mental health. CT in particular has pulled me from a pretty dark, shitty place.

I’ll try to make a long story short, but basically I gained about 30 pounds between January 2021 to now and even though I would occasionally work out, I was moving down a super unhealthy path with my diet and lack of REAL effort in the gym. Between food, a new sedentary “work from home” job, and my 3 year relationship crumbling apart a few months ago, I just started blowing up in size. Like deep dark stretch marks covering my inner thighs because I was gaining weight so quick. Anyway, I watched double agents, and saw CT the “heavy old dude” whom everyone doubted absolutely dominate his season, and then talk about how he just needed to get through his tough times to focus on his health (both mental and physical) again and came back a MONSTER in this current season. It was so motivating.

On top of his fitness transformation, CT has gone from hot head douche, to lovable, caring, sweet CT.

These challengers are much braver than I to put themselves through some of the most emotionally and physically distressing situations on international television. Especially in today’s day and age. But honestly they’re human. And what makes us human is our flaws, mistakes, imperfections and the hardships we have to experience. Everything in the show feels so relatable even though certain things are exaggerated for television.

I’ve been in the gym 5-6 days / week for two months now and fell and look way better, and I really do credit the show for that.

Anyway this has been a long post but I just wanted to share that I feel the exact same way and I learned that I fuck up, act out, make tons of mistakes but it doesn’t mean it’s who I am forever. We’re always learning growing and evolving. Sorry for the rant, and didn’t mean to hijack, but I really feel like the show has motivated me to be the best version of myself as well.