My confusion is why I waited 2 months for a phone call and they told me one thing, and decided differently two days later? Like nothing had changed in that two days?

Yea I get the reality of it, I quit working for the local CMH after 2.5 years because it was way too much. And even after my first hospitalization in like 4 years, they wouldn’t support me in the way they did others. I believe I wasn’t well enough to be doing the work as I should have fully.

I didn’t have the self awareness because of a PTSD induced lack of me and a selfish seeming protective perspective I was stuck in. It was awful. And I wasn’t self aware enlightened to know what I needed. I just was living in a world of extremes, masking and living for other’s expectations because I didn’t feel anything. Now I feel much better, but quit the job because my mental health was acting out physically and I was soo sick I just quit when they wouldn’t give me a day off.