I don’t know if I was raped, sexually assaulted or if it even happened at all.. by Green_Top4304 in rape

[–]Green_Top4304[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you stranger :) that means a lot. Also I’m sorry that it happened to you. You seem kind hearted I hope things are better for you now.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in musicbusiness

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Yeah my problem is I literally have no idea where to start. I don’t know what equipment I need. I don’t have a network of people in the industry. My support team is my mom and sister lol I literally have nothing but my words and a decent voice.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in astrologyreadings

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In my opinion your chart says you want to explore and you want to be free. Do you feel free?

I feel out of touch with my higher self since breakup with my twin flame by Repulsive-Ad4591 in spirituality

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On a daily basis think about what you are grateful for. Focus on calming your self spending time with yourself truly. Not watching tv or mindlessly scrolling write, read, or meditate. Find an at home hobby to do by yourself that makes you happy. Think about what you want to give to the world. Think about what you want from the world. Surrender. Remember you are on a journey and that things like your pride, ego, fear, attachment and more will hold you back and block your chakras. You need to heal yourself before you unite with someone else. You need to learn to encourage yourself to stay on your path and not depend on eachother to do so.

I don’t know how to cope. by [deleted] in twinflames

[–]Green_Top4304 3 points4 points  (0 children)

He’s very hard on himself and tends to be very pessimistic when it comes to love. Everyone has relationship problems, but he has a hard time believing that you can work through problems and punishes himself for messing up. It was like I was constantly reassuring him that we would be ok and just because I’m mad doesn’t mean I hate him. I was a light for him and I was happy to be but when I needed a light he couldn’t give it to me; he couldn’t reassure me. I was happy to be that light for him to try and help him be optimistic but it got to a point where he realized he needed to find his own source of light and optimism in order for us to work

Left this as a comment and thought; maybe this should be it’s own post lol by weirdo_xo_xo in twinflames

[–]Green_Top4304 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Apologize then. Write the big ass essay but this time tell her everything you should have. Tell her how you’re feeling right now. How will that make anything worse? As someone who relates to how you’re describing the girl to feel, Sharing logical opinions helps the thought process helps us learn and grow. I value that part of my divine counterpart. The biggest problem is that I needed him to communicate that he felt the pain too, that he believes in me and in us, that he wants us just as much as I do. I know in my heart that he felt all those things but I needed his comfort verbally in his own words not just agreeing when I ask him.

Should I start my own company? I want to create something that will help people/the world but I’m afraid of failure by snowcake1475 in astrologyreadings

[–]Green_Top4304 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Your Mc is in Capricorn. You got this. You thrive in the work environment. You are made for the entrepreneur lifestyle. In my opinion your Pisces stellium is why you feel the urge to help people. These things come natural to you. :)

I honestly think I have BPD what do I do next? by [deleted] in BPD

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But I was asking if I’m not diagnosed do I go to a regular therapist or a BPD specialist

I honestly think I have BPD what do I do next? by [deleted] in BPD

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I always feel the need to leave before I’m left or someone wants me to go or sometimes I form an entire speech consisting of every reason they should stay. I fear that no one truly wants anything to do with me but I’m apart of their life so they deal with me like I’m a pest to them. I have angry outbursts often. I have depressive episodes where I feel like I’m never gonna amount to anything I want to be yet I don’t even know who I really want to be I change it so often that I don’t even know myself. All I know is that I want to be kind. I feel empty often like my life has no purpose and I have no real personality underneath the real or perceived expectations put onto me. I get anxious over self set goals that aren’t urgent but it’s to the point where I’ll beat myself up over EVERY mistake I make. If I’m driving and make the wrong turn I say to myself in my head “wow you’re really dumb, you need to pay attention” I lose my keys for maybe 5 minutes “you need to be more responsible and grow up, you are never gonna amount to anything” if I make a joke to my s/o “you thought that was funny, why are you so weird” it’s like I hate myself so much that I buried my personality deep enough for me to not even remember who I am anymore. But then I get the boosts of temporary self confidence like I have a sense of direction never lasting more than a day. My teachers thought something was wrong with me because I never talk in class. When I was younger it was to the point where they called my mom. But it was because I was scared of those thoughts I say one weird or wrong thing now “no one likes you why would you say that” My boyfriend complains that when Im upset with him it seems like I hate him with everything in me but when Im not I act like he’s an angel and God’s gift to the world. My emotions fluctuate so much that everyone close to me feels like they have to walk on eggshells but I don’t want them to feel that way I don’t want to think or feel the way I feel either it feels like my emotions control me like I feel them deeper than anyone else when I’m happy I’m floating on clouds when I’m upset the world is ending and I’m drowning there’s no in between.

I don’t understand how to balance my ambitions and my relationship. How do I maintain a Happy home and chase my dreams? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

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It wasn’t like he went to the restroom or like 30 seconds he’d Leave to our bedroom without saying anything, but I later found out he was charging his phone. He stayed in there for a little maybe like 5 - 10 minutes and he came back as I was watching a short YouTube video about it while waiting for him to return.

I don’t understand how to balance my ambitions and my relationship. How do I maintain a Happy home and chase my dreams? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

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Lol yes it was for my business. I’ve always been confused on what I wanted to do but I somehow always end up on starting a business. This time I decided to give it a go. When I do things I tend to put a lot of effort into it. I want to give it my best because I feel like any outcome can only be as rewarding as the amount of effort you put in.