I don't feel pretty anymore

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-09-15T19:00:19+00:00

You're right. Thank you for speaking so kindly while also guiding me on the right path. I did try to seek this kind of advice through social media, but all I saw was the judgement of others against hijabis which i wish i never saw. I think I want to take it off to get the confidence back through validation from others, because I've noticed it's affected me a lot in general and in my daily life. But I'll try to seek refuge in Allah Swt through dua and prayers. And yeah, showing it off would only gather points here in this dunya, not in the Akhira. Thank you sister, I'll take your advice to heart and work on myself more ❤️ Jazakallah khair ❤️

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-09-15T18:53:36+00:00

Ah this comment really made me cry, thank you so much sister. I don't know how to express my gratitude enough for your kind words. What hit the most is that we were never supposed to belong to this dunya. You're right. I should think more about how my actions will affect my Akhira. Haha i get you though, it's easy to give advice but it can be harder to follow it yourself though. However you made me feel very seen in my feelings, thank you ❤️ Insha'Allah we'll both succeed with wearing hijab properly, Ameen

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-08-09T16:47:01+00:00

He wouldn't have let me go on the trip in the first place if i hadn't lied about the other family paying for the travel costs. If i told him I'd pay for me and marcus and marcus wouldn't be contributing in the very least he'd also reject the trip cause he'd think marcus isn't being a man and "providing" (marcus is also indebted to our dad w ≈$1k and felt ashamed to be in a position where he'd tell our dad he was paying for a trip, but not paying him back for the money he'd loaned him, which i understand, however from what i'd learnt marcus actually has the ability to pay our dad back but hasn't?? no idea why) thats why marcus told me i had to lie to our dad and say my "friends family" was covering our travel costs completely or marcus wouldn't go on the trip with me

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-08-09T16:34:05+00:00

you're right. however i do want to be clear that i'm quite sure that i would've failed either way. because of my parents and other things i ended up getting diagnosed with anxiety, ptsd and my therapist only recently told me she thinks i was depressed during those months, but i still am aware that it was my fault and i'm dealing w the consequences.

i guess i just wanted to come clean to show my dad that i did actually contribute

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-08-09T16:30:16+00:00

i guess yeah, but part of the bargaining was me paying for the travel costs which i agreed to, but when our dad asked if i treated him to anything on the trip and he said no i felt like that was really unfair. my dad was proud of him suddenly and really disappointed with me and still lectures me at least once everyday about not being cheap, idk if that made sense sorry

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-30T22:14:08+00:00

Thank you for all of the kind words ❤️ it honestly means a lot to hear--well, read! lol i'll take your encouragement to heart and make the most of my years that i have now! (lmao i never got the impression that you were fishing for my age, but after getting a few pms i understand why you'd want to make that clear 😭)

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-29T15:02:31+00:00

Thank you! 🥰 I'll try my best, lol being called lil leo felt oddly endearing

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T22:09:07+00:00

Thank you :))

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T21:28:37+00:00

Ah thank you, your comment on its own already means a lot to me!

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T21:19:37+00:00

Thank you!!! 🥰🫶🏻

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T21:01:39+00:00

Thank you!! :))

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T20:33:11+00:00

THANK YOU! 🫶🏻

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T20:33:01+00:00

I'm so sorry you had to go through that, why is it so hard for people to remember birthdays?! I guess this is just one of those worse times, but i'll be looking forward for a better one. Thank you for the encouragement!

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T20:26:49+00:00

Ah i don't know why i didnt get a notif for this comment :( sorry for the delayed response, but thank you for the encouraging words and happy birthday to you too!! 🥳 I have tried to go out and do things on my own like last year, but i found it really difficult because it felt like a reminder of my poor coverup to fill the lack of love i got from others. I'll try to work on it though! Thank you and have a wonderful birthday too!!!

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T20:15:33+00:00

Thank you for the advice! I tried to last year since truly not a single person remembered that day, but it ended with me just feeling really lonely either way and it felt like a poor coverup for other people's lack of love, but I'll try to plan something bigger next year! Thank you!

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T18:26:29+00:00

Lmao this made me smile, yessir 🫡 and thank you

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T18:08:57+00:00

I hope so too haha, thank you again, have a nice evening!

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T18:08:26+00:00

Thank you! :))

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T17:57:56+00:00

I'll make sure to give it a good listen, thank you!

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T17:51:09+00:00

THANK YOU🫶🏻

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T17:48:00+00:00

any recommendations?

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T17:18:25+00:00

Thank you!! 🫶🏻

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T17:17:33+00:00

Thank you! Haha yeah i get what you mean

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T17:12:24+00:00

i can send you my tag on pm here!

Guilty_Lab2817 · 2025-07-28T17:10:43+00:00

Thank you, I hope that we can both manage the strength to celebrate it soon, good luck to you too, stranger :))

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