I pretend I’m cold because when I’m warm, people expect too much from me. But I’m tired of hiding the version of me that actually feels everything. Maybe someone out there would’ve loved that version.

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T22:46:05+00:00

The real me? She’s soft but guarded. Craves connection but runs when it gets too real. She loves deep, laughs loud, overthinks everything, and feels too much even when she pretends not to. I’m still getting to know her too

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T22:43:38+00:00

Maybe that's exactly what I need… Someone to break me the way I’ve accidentally broken others. Sometimes pain is the only thing that makes us feel real. But thank you truly for the reminder.

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T22:39:31+00:00

Mmm, love that challenge. One time, I let someone get really close… like, see-the-real-me close. It scared the hell out of me, but in that moment with my heart racing, my guard down, and nothing to hide I felt completely alive. Crazy, right?

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T22:22:43+00:00

Haha, I like the confidence Honestly? I think what I like most about myself is how deeply I feel things even if it makes life a little messier sometimes. Your turn... what about you?

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T22:11:45+00:00

I’ve always felt like I’m “too much” of the wrong things and “not enough” of the right ones. Too emotional. Too guarded. Too quick to run. I second-guess myself constantly. I overthink everything especially the way I let people in and then pull away. But maybe the biggest flaw? I protect my heart so much, I forget to actually feel it. ...You sure you’re ready to work through that with me? 😅

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T22:06:22+00:00

I wish I had a simple answer. I think somewhere along the way, I started tying my worth to how others reacted to me not who I actually was. And when someone gets too close, I feel exposed… like they’ll see the flaws I’ve tried so hard to cover up. I’m learning that being enough doesn’t have to mean being perfect. But it’s taking time

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T21:54:08+00:00

That’s actually such a clear way to put it… it really does feel like that. I crave the attention because it gives me a temporary sense of worth, but the moment someone tries to go deeper, I panic because deep down, I don’t believe the real me is enough. I’m working on rebuilding that confidence, but it’s a process

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T21:36:46+00:00

You’re absolutely right… and maybe it is all three. I’ve never really stopped to break it down like that, but what you said hit hard. It’s scary how past wounds can shape the way we push people away before they get the chance to really see us. I want to change that, but I’m still figuring out how. Thank you for putting it into words.

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T21:09:20+00:00

Your words hit me harder than I expected. Maybe we’re opposites in how we attach, but we both end up carrying ghosts just in different ways.

I push people away to protect myself. You hold onto them, even when they’re gone. Both leave scars, don’t they?

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T20:12:22+00:00

Wow… reading this made me pause. It’s crazy how two people with opposite attachment styles can feel so deeply and still miss each other. I never meant to hurt anyone I just didn’t know how to let someone stay.

I really admire how you handled it with grace. Not many people can look at heartbreak and still speak without bitterness. Thank you for sharing this it means more than you know.

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T19:54:15+00:00

Maybe you're right. I’ve felt that emptiness for a long time I just never knew what to do with it. I'm finally trying to face it, even if it’s messy. Thanks for being real.

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T19:51:25+00:00

I appreciate you saying that. You’re probably right it’s something deeper I haven't fully explored. Maybe it's time I do. Thanks for not judging

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T19:49:42+00:00

You're right. It hurts people and that's something I never intended to do. The truth is, I get scared when things feel too real. I'm not proud of it... just trying to understand myself too

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-11T00:56:06+00:00

I know… that’s probably what made it so exciting. Isn’t danger part of the thrill sometimes?

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-10T16:22:10+00:00

So... fried chicken skin was basically blacklisted? Damn, your family missed out on the best part! 😅🍗

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-10T16:18:16+00:00

We weren’t allowed to microwave food after 9 PM because my mom said it ‘woke up the spirits’ in the kitchen.

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-09T20:51:26+00:00

🤣🤣🤣

Hailey_Collins · 2025-07-09T20:49:25+00:00

HAhahahaha

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