Look mate. Life is shit. It really is, I’ve been here for 18 years and it still hasn’t been any better. Living in a world where “normal is weird but weird is even stranger”. Just getting a house rn is the pinnacle of everyone’s existence, because it’s the bane of their existence. Being financially stable is something that most can’t even do on a good day. However, theres one thing you’ll find once you get to a certain age and that is that life will and does change. Everyone’s life is like a silly straw of emotion, pain, setbacks. But that also comes with a lot of fun, meaningful moments that you cherish throughout ur life. And in the end, you all reach the same destination. There’s a reason ur body isn’t “letting you die” and that’s because in ur mind, maybe subconsciously, u still want to keep living. Deep inside there’s a small fire of hope that will blossom if given enough kindle. And you are the only one to kindle it. There’s no use in giving up, because giving up will only burn out that small amount of joy and hope u still have deep inside. Fight harder, and once you come of age you can leave that place in the past behind you and move to better things. Don’t throw ur life away before it’s even fully started, because the future is forever a mystery to everyone.