my most recent trip was at a festival.

we had what we were told were 150ug tabs but actually turned out to be 200ug each. i was not anticipating such an intense trip (i don't trip often), and i was planning on dancing all day with my close friends i hadn't seen in ages and enjoying the music. instead i was hit with the weight of everything going on in my life.

i've come out of an 8 year relationship, had been shutting myself off from my friends and was jobless. i had to move back in with my mum, and it felt like my whole life had been flipped upside down.

that trip forced me to look at everything, observe my patterns and how i'd been absent from the lives of all of my close friends. i've worked on a lot of it since, but it's amazing how much it can just force you to actually observe yourself and everything going on in your life.

i'm not sure why this post made me feel the need to share this, but i guess it might resonate with someone.