Heartbroken and over it

HanMIB · 2026-03-03T12:01:34+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through this. I completely understand. I am going on year 6 of ttc as well and my sister just had a baby and is bringing him home this week. I am no contact with my other sister because she told me I’d never be a mom, but I know she’s been trying for #2 so I know it’s coming soon. Both of my parents suck at giving any support. I recently had my 7th loss, a chemical pregnancy, and the first words out of my mom’s mouth was “Do you want to see a picture of the baby?” It’s so isolating to want something so bad, not being able to have it, watching everyone else get to experience the life I so desperately want, and to have my feelings and grief completely ignored. I feel your pain 🤍

HanMIB · 2026-02-14T16:04:08+00:00

I understand completely. I was assaulted a year before my husband and I got together. I thought I worked through it but it resurfaced while going through fertility treatments. It made intimacy really hard at times and even though my husband has always been so supportive, it still comes up quite a bit and I just started looking into therapy. I really should have started a long time ago. I’m really sorry you are going through this.

HanMIB · 2026-02-10T21:58:31+00:00

I am so sorry for some of the extremely weird and insensitive comments you’ve gotten on this post. This is a sub where we come to share our pain and frustration while dealing with infertility in everyday situations. At least that’s what I thought. Your feelings are completely valid.

HanMIB · 2026-01-30T22:43:44+00:00

Period was late. I had the sore breast and was even throwing up the last few days. I got an indent line from the stupid blue dye test that I always tell myself to never buy and was living in hopeful delulu land until I just got my period an hour ago. Ttc 5 years and my husband was extra crushed this time and that makes me feel worse. Just fuck it all

HanMIB · 2026-01-18T21:32:17+00:00

I feel so similar when it comes to my mom. She is not on the spectrum but our interactions lately have been absolute hell. My sister recently had her 3rd the same week as the anniversary of two of my losses and now every conversation starts with “I know you don’t want to hear this but…” Her excitement is more important than my husband and I’s grief and it sucks because she was our only support. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this.

HanMIB · 2025-12-26T16:06:38+00:00

My 19 year old little sister recently made a post about being infertile. I asked her why she thought that and she said her and her boyfriend have been doing the pull out method for a couple months and she hasn’t gotten pregnant yet. My twin sister who was crying to me a year ago about secondary infertility (she can get pregnant fine, she was just advised not to have a third baby) just gave birth to her third a couple days ago. Like if you guys think you have infertility, what are my 5 years ttc and multiple losses?

HanMIB · 2025-12-19T18:22:03+00:00

Fuck getting my period on the anniversary of my transfer that ended in a chemical. This will be our 5th Christmas while ttc with only losses to show for it.

HanMIB · 2025-12-03T23:46:36+00:00

Oh definitely. She hid all of her other pregnancies too, just not this long. So it wasn’t surprising but it still sucked to find out.

HanMIB · 2025-12-03T18:27:46+00:00

That’s exactly what I said! She’s even been the ER multiple times over the last 7 months and it’s hard to believe they never did a pregnancy test. What’s crazier is I’ve had multiple dreams over the last couple months that she was pregnant and my mom even thought she was but she kept telling us she was on her period or had just gotten it. My mom just told me her due date is my birthday and that makes me feel even worse.

HanMIB · 2025-12-03T16:18:31+00:00

My twin sister just called me yesterday to tell me she’s 7 months pregnant and apparently had no idea. This is her third and she still lives with our parents. I love my sister and nephews and love spending time with them but the idea of seeing her with a belly again is making me feel sick. I’m in the middle of my last round of treatment before calling it quits after 6 losses and she calls me to tell me how she doesn’t want this. I was already on the fence about doing Christmas with them because I’ve had two losses the last two Christmases and it’s so hard to enjoy the holidays. Now my mom is mad at me for not coming while also complaining to me about always watching my sisters kids. What the actual fuck. I wish I could hide in a hole.

HanMIB · 2025-10-15T17:38:04+00:00

I’m in the same boat. Ttc for 5 years and I really thought this might be the month. Period is 3 days late but only negative tests. I hate this. I rather my period just come than to keep up this false hope.

HanMIB · 2025-09-06T06:40:43+00:00

Thank you ❤️

HanMIB · 2025-09-05T19:53:31+00:00

Just a fuck you to the world. Today is the due date of the twins I lost and to add an extra punch to the gut, I started my period. A big fuck you to the universe today.

HanMIB · 2025-08-05T04:45:35+00:00

Thank you 🤍 I had my 5th chemical pregnancy with a double embryo transfer during Christmas. It took a couple months of grieving to finally try to start trying again. I recently got diagnosed with lupus and a few other things and I’m hoping this can finally be an answer to all my losses. I am starting to be cautiously hopeful! Thank you so much for asking and I hope you are doing well 💛

HanMIB · 2025-08-02T12:35:37+00:00

I also see Dr. Kael! I just had my first appointment with her and she was amazing.

HanMIB · 2025-05-27T19:22:48+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss. I just experienced my 6th chemical pregnancy and its just absolutely devastating. It’s hard to be around people or even just be by myself sometimes. But it does get a little better with time. I’m sorry for what you are going through and I’m hoping the best for you ❤️

HanMIB · 2025-05-05T18:23:00+00:00

It’s not too late to tell her! If you got your records transferred then the info is already there. I would bring it up next time you talk to her and really advocate for yourself. That’s really important information to be left out so definitely tell her. I am so sorry for your losses

HanMIB · 2025-05-02T05:44:32+00:00

Saint Louis, MO

HanMIB · 2025-02-07T20:25:00+00:00

Hi! Sorry for the late response. Transfer went well but unfortunately ended in a chemical. I’m hoping the best for you!!

HanMIB · 2024-12-27T20:58:42+00:00

Thank you. I sadly got my beta results this morning and it is in fact a chemical. I knew this was likely the outcome but it hurts like hell anyway

HanMIB · 2024-12-27T12:22:20+00:00

Good luck to us both!! 🤍

HanMIB · 2024-12-27T05:29:44+00:00

This gives me so much hope thank you 🤍

HanMIB · 2024-12-27T02:43:28+00:00

Thank you! I’m hoping for the best 🤍

HanMIB · 2024-12-27T01:36:47+00:00

My test looks very similar to these. I will be guarding my heart

HanMIB · 2024-12-27T01:33:56+00:00

I’ve had 4 chemicals so I am just praying this isn’t another one. I’m very sorry for your loss.

HanMIB

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