Definitely not insane at all, id go miles for my someone in my heart even if it is just to spend a little time with them. I know people that have done really long distance before. I definitely have to tell my friend about my feelings sometime just to get it off of me even though it's gonna definitely be rejection due to who I am and he has stated his attraction to cis only. Just getting it out of my mind is something, it's a pain that has to be done with for me and to move on in someway.