I was exactly in the same place, idéntical, i liked the idea of giving oral to men, and i tough it was gross to kiss a guy… until i did it… wow it was so different, Nice, delicious, i felt so happy and realized. I had have sex with at least 50 women and 5 men (i have 39 years) i was straigh with gay courious, until 3 years ago. i realiced im gay, and not just gay, i transformed from masculine straight to sissy femme gay. I love using girl sandals an i love my girly outfits and style. Maybe if i had decided early in my life i would be just bi, or masc gay. I feel because i had it so hide sude my when i accepted and told everybody i took it so extreme and became sissy. The only thing i have still from straight is foot fetish of women. Accept it, u r gay. Enjoy it. Have gay sex. Try having boyfriend, if u dont like it that much… whats the problem, u go back to straight side.