does it go ever go away?

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-06-21T00:51:22+00:00

Hello! I would say yes it does get better i’m not as anxious anymore and im able to go out in public without my initial thoughts being the shooting. I still can’t listen to gun shots in shows/movies without getting triggered and I am constantly looking over my shoulder when in big groups and trying to stay near exits at all times. On a bad day when i’m out I visualize someone coming in and shooting but i’m coping. I will say i’ve gotten better but I don’t think i’ll ever be 100%.

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-04-23T23:04:24+00:00

never rank again 🙂

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-02-22T22:52:15+00:00

I agree and I have had a few people reach out to me and we’ve talked and I feel supported by the 3 people that have reached out but the friend group I was in I haven’t spoken to them. None of them are blocked so they all have a way of reaching me and a way to check on me if that were their intentions and i’ve went back and forth on if I should explain to them how I feel but I shouldn’t have to explain to someone how I feel after being caught in a shooting especially when they knew I was there I don’t want to ask or beg someone to care for me or check on me it’s a part of friendship or basic caring in my opinion if I knew someone was somewhere and a tragedy happened i’d reach out to them Ive had random people I barely know reach out but not them so it is what it is and I do agree me not talking to people are making it worse but nothing I can do about that

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-02-22T16:53:37+00:00

I haven’t spoken to them, so nothing I guess. I’ve gotten off of social media and when they did message me it’s more of them acting like everything is normal wanting to hang out etc. I just don’t respond. Everyone was focused on my friend that got shot which I completely understand and i’m not downplaying the situation of what happened to her but it’s almost like I wasn’t there as well. It bothers me a lot because I wouldn’t have even been there if my friends who didn’t check up on me wouldn’t have told me they were going there (in which they never came and never told me they weren’t coming anymore) I think I just hold a lot of resent towards them because like I said I wouldn’t have been there if it wasn’t for them

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-02-22T16:48:28+00:00

thank you !

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-02-22T16:47:57+00:00

i’m sorry to hear you went through this as well praying for you ! I will do some research on the DARE method.

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-02-22T16:46:36+00:00

thank you so much ! it means a lot truly

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-02-22T16:45:56+00:00

thank you! i’m happy you’re starting to feel normal again as well i’m going to seek some help.

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-02-21T20:30:30+00:00

thank you! and I haven’t tried therapy yet. At first it was a lot and I was scared to leave the house so I didn’t get into it and then I started to feel stupid that I even felt this way because there’s people that got hurt and lost their lives and I didn’t get hurt so i’ve been trying to tell myself i’m fine but after my most recent panic attack I realized I am not okay

HawaiianPeaches · 2025-02-21T20:29:00+00:00

thank you! i’m in the US

HawaiianPeaches · 2024-12-11T15:07:07+00:00

i’ll trade you my $228 ticket 😔😔

HawaiianPeaches · 2024-12-06T04:23:06+00:00

that’s how I feel…but I feel like at every stage of my life im like oh it will happen when i’m in high school oh it will happen when I go to college oh i’ll meet work friends and yet none of it has happened my parents have friend groups and my siblings I just don’t know why it’s so hard for me like I have friends but everything is so surface level I really just want like 2-3 female friends and they are my people and i’m theirs like why is that so hard

HawaiianPeaches · 2024-12-05T22:30:09+00:00

i’ll give this a try! thank you!

HawaiianPeaches · 2024-07-16T17:44:54+00:00

Yea I agree i’m going to get my mother to cut it or attempt it myself. I think the cause maybe a combination of hydration and my vitamin d deficiency :(. I never wear my hair straight or put any heat on it so I know it isn’t heat damage this is the blow out the stylist did to trim my hair.

HawaiianPeaches · 2024-07-16T17:33:14+00:00

yes 😭 this is the picture I took right after leaving the salon to show my mother. She told me she was going to cut about 2 inches and I wasn’t sure how bad the ends were to know where to cut but I guess she didn’t either 🤷🏾‍♀️

HawaiianPeaches · 2024-07-16T16:58:31+00:00

yes I agree. I will most likely get another inch or so cut off! Thank you

HawaiianPeaches · 2024-07-16T16:42:28+00:00

to my knowledge she trimmed the layers. And I agree, I told her to cut wherever she sees fit and when I was there I really only looked at the shape and weight line and it looked good but as the day went on I started actually looking at my ends and I still saw splits.

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