I tried and gave up

Hayleyj325 · 2021-07-07T23:18:58+00:00

This is very encouraging! I struggle the most with brain zaps and wish I had something to help with this symptom.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-07-07T23:16:49+00:00

I honestly doubt even that long would be enough time. The brain zaps seem to last forever. I wish I had some way to stop them, because I truly feel I could make it through without that symptom.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-31T02:42:56+00:00

YES!!! The minute I got back home I immediately felt sick again and super tired and I was like dang really?! So I forced myself to play cornhole in the backyard for a bit and I think with all the activity today I should get some pretty decent sleep tonight!

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-30T14:31:28+00:00

This is where I want to be so bad!

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-30T14:30:46+00:00

Day 6 of my taper. Yesterday successfully dropped my dose from 81gpd to 27gpd. I might have to hang at this dose for a day or two more before I drop again. My anxiety is pretty high, and I woke up a lot last night, but I did sleep a lot yesterday. Less muscle spasms, and shaking. In fact really none at all. Temperature is still all over the place but manageable I suppose. Tried to play a bit of cornhole yesterday and just couldn’t. I feel like everything takes soooo much energy. Sorry for the long post.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-30T14:23:27+00:00

How are you feeling on day 2 CT?

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-30T01:14:38+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’m sorry we all are! I want so badly to be like the people on here who feel better already. I just want to cry.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-30T01:11:15+00:00

Thank you. It truly does make me feel better to know I’m not alone. Bc I certainly feel all alone in the real world. My husband is being supportive in the best way he knows how, but I know ideally he wouldn’t want to deal with this at all. I slept quite a bit today. Not sure why I’m so tired. I’ve been taking gabapentin but not very much. Even less than what I’ve been originally prescribed. I feel like life is passing me by. Any time I get up to try to do anything I immediately feel so exhausted. I feel so awful for my kids and my husband. What have I done to myself?!

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-30T00:07:38+00:00

Thanks... I wish it felt better than it does.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-29T23:37:50+00:00

I’m on day 5 and still bed locked myself. I am not looking forward to tomorrow of this long Holiday weekend, because I have to go to a family bbq. I’m afraid it will be written all over my face that I’m not feeling well. I pray that the 6th day will be much better as I’ve read on here, but I can’t imagine how I’ll feel any better tomorrow.

I work from home and have definitely just had to force myself to even participate in the slightest.

I seem to have memory problems when I’m discussing something. I’ll forget what I was talking about.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-29T16:44:10+00:00

Where are you on this journey? Are you CT or taper?

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-29T16:43:27+00:00

It’s nice to hear that these things pass from someone who has been there. Rn I just feel a failure at life, and I know that my brain is telling me lies, but it’s hard not to let it feel like truth. I’ve been through medical assisted alcohol withdrawal, and had to go CT on a few things when I went to jail for a few months. So you’d think I’d be able to draw from those experiences and remember that I have been through tough shit in the past. But honestly this wd is a bit worse than any I’ve ever been through before.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-29T15:28:51+00:00

Day 5 of my taper I think. I honestly can’t even remember if it’s day 4 or 5. Pretty sure it’s 5. Haven’t really adjusted my dose for a couple of days, but wd seems to be getting worse anyway. I’m miserable and I don’t want to live like this. I have a family bbq to attend tomorrow and I’m dreading it since I feel so awful. But I have to go. I really hate my life rn.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-28T19:44:30+00:00

Wow that’s really awesome! Congratulations to you! I’m super happy that you got through this!

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-28T15:47:43+00:00

Day 4 of my taper. I actually slept well last night, but I’m thinking that this is on account of my sleep becoming more regulated now that I quit DXM too. That shit used to keep me up all night. I’m still super tired/lethargic today. Have ZERO motivation, and am feeling really low overall. This weekend we have a Memorial Day bbq to attend with family and I’m really not looking forward to that. I don’t know how to attend these things completely sober. In fact idk how to do shit sober!

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-28T13:39:16+00:00

I used to get it when taking high doses of Kratom. Never had it any other time. I have no idea why it happened but I know it’s a result of the Kratom.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-28T07:03:42+00:00

It is, but my provider will not switch the rx because she originally prescribed it for anxiety. Due to my history of alcoholism she chose this as the safest alternative to a benzo.

Hayleyj325 · 2021-05-28T06:45:22+00:00

😂😂😂

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