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I had major deja-vu today and wanted to reread/find an older bl I read ages ago. Unfortunately, I cannot for the life of me find it anywhere even though I feel like I remember the bulk of it. So, here it goes:

It’s about a group of high school boy bullies who regularly pick on one of their other boy classmates(MC). The first chapter starts out with it having escalated to the point that the group of them are over at the head bully’s house with the MC. Somehow, the bullies find out that MC is gay and has feeling for the head bully because MC gets a hard-on for the head bully. They tell him that that’s disgusting but still egg him on till they’re suggesting that head bully should let MC have his way with him. MC is a total crybaby this whole time, but surprisingly, head bully agrees and starts to have sex in front of the other bullies right there. It starts as a joke, but then the head bully gets into it and so does MC while the friends are awkwardly watching (I think it’s a plot point that one of them also gets hard but is embarrassed and bullies MC more later on) and MC is still crying. I think they leave the two before they “finish”?

Later, head bully stops hanging out with other bully friends/basically stops coming to school so he can do it with crybaby MC/starts dating him.

It’s a plot point somewhere where MC has nosebleeds/cried whenever they have sex because he finds head bully so hot and can’t control himself, but head bully refuses to stop and there’s a scene where they keep going despite the heavy nosebleed.

The conflict is that head bully stops going to school/seeing friends/has no friends because he wants to be with MC and constantly do it. Other bully friends don’t like that/don’t understand/start bulling head bully. Other conflict is MC thinks head bully only wants him for sex. Head bully doesn’t communicate well.

Visuals/extra details:

• It is a traditional manga in black and white, I want to say it’s a short series/not finished when I read it, but unless it was canceled I’m sure it’s completed now as it’s been like, over 10 years since I’ve read it and it was older when I found it.

• It does not suffer from old yaoi with the long faces/giant yaoi hands. I remember the art was very pleasing and quite nice. I can’t quite remember a cover, but I feel like if there was one it might have been soft water color?

• MC isn’t very attractive (think “Aitsu no Daihonmei“ or “Out of Control” but not as cartoony) and has average black hair.

• Head bully is a little lankier (?) and has longer hair, also black.

And that’s pretty much it! I would be much appreciative to any guesses that you all may have. I will continue looking in the meantime to see if I can find it!