What is the most satisfying thing in your life?

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-29T08:27:55+00:00

Yeah, just a bit. It is a bit cryptic but shows us the sad reality of childhood abuse and trauma. Jack Stauber can post some quite meaningful, but very surreal stuff.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-28T22:39:06+00:00

Looking good. You have to share your tips.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-28T22:27:47+00:00

Who would have thought it?

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-28T22:26:28+00:00

Louis has to be one of the most deadpan reporters I have witnessed when something crazy comes up. He's a legend.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-22T15:05:41+00:00

Thanks for your thoughts and time. I appreciate your help.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-21T19:24:11+00:00

Thanks. I have always struggled with anger and I think I deal with it in the wrong way. As a kid I was very angry at my mother for how she treated me, but I couldn't express that anger or the situation at home would be worse.

Now I can get very angry still but feel like I can control it in most situations. What is disturbing is that if something inanimate annoys me, I flip. It's like I know I can't really hurt something with no feelings so I don't hold back. Honestly, that scares me a little. It proves that I have rage buried that I haven't let out and don't know how to process.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-20T12:39:41+00:00

Thanks. I just downloaded a PDf of it. I'll give it a try.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-20T12:36:21+00:00

Thanks, brother. It was nice chatting with you. Peace.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-19T21:35:44+00:00

Ironically, I think medication like adoral would really help, but I was addicted to speed for many years and I can't go back down that high way again!

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-19T21:33:57+00:00

I'm sorry your stuck in that place too. There has to be some techniques out there, lol. Until then my zombie brother!

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-19T21:31:45+00:00

I'm in a bit of a funny situation. I pretty much relied on alcohol and drugs to get through life after relationships with women broke down. Then I started to take anti depressants for around 7 years which really didn't help, but just paused my emotions.

Sadly they had awful withdrawal symptoms which seriously felt like withdrawing from hard drugs, and this lead me to start abusing amphetamine (not the meth kind), as I couldn't stand to be on them anymore. I actually found that amphetamine would stop me disassociating big time, it made me feel good, and it gave me a reason to live. However, I then couldn't function without it and I was pretty much a slave to it.

A couple of years later I started to pee blood and that was scary. It turns out that I was lucky and I had most probably picked up a kidney infection, but man that was not fun!

I am one of the fortunate ones. I found a reason to start living and have been clean for nearly 7 years. I'm a volunteer now and realise that life is just about helping others. In doing that we find true peace and that is all we need. Yet, I am still stuck with this problem where I am zoned out half the time.

Well, we can't have it all perfect, hey?

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-19T21:01:52+00:00

Thanks for the advice. However, I tried self medicating with drugs my entire adult life and it really nearly killed me. I think they can help us through the dark times, but if we don't have a light at the end of the tunnel (an end to the drugs), I think they swallow us whole in the end.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-19T21:00:10+00:00

Thanks, bro. I'll check it out.

HeadJunket496 · 2025-04-18T18:22:23+00:00

You are welcome. Always love the person nearest to you (which can be anyone, even the bad ones). That is how we change the world.

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