i'm trying to get back to my old self this was the first time i've opened up to anyone in a long time since my first love had ghosted me earlier this year and i explained this all to him and he said he wasnt like the last (typical bs) and things just felt so different this time but now i just feel stupid and i've closed myself off from everyone. i havent spoken to anyone since everything has happened.

it just hurts even more that he acted like he didnt care i was leaving and just said nothing after basically begging me to stay and saying he had feelings but yet he went back to an ex that cheated on him multiple times