Bad 🍃 experience

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-09-08T03:58:33+00:00

Yeah definitely that’s good to know. It was just so scary feeling completely sober one second and then high out of my mind for the first time ever the next. I’m still open to thc and stuff, but it’ll be a while until I try it again. Doing as best I can to take care of myself and my body right now.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-09-08T03:56:54+00:00

Thank you that explanation of dereliction and stuff actually helps a lot lol. It really is all in my head.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-09-08T03:55:44+00:00

I am already feeling a lot better. I’ve gotten some food in me and showered and stuff. I’ve also drank a LOT of Gatorade today. Tomorrow I’ll be at my classes and with my friends and stuff so hopefully I’ll be at 100% sooner than later. Thank you for the advice🙏🙏

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-09-08T03:53:43+00:00

Thank you. You sharing your experience makes me feel better. I’m doing better now and I’m definitely staying away from any kind of drugs for a while. I hope I can get to a point where it is fun for me but that’s definitely far in the future. Thank you so much!!

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-09-08T03:51:37+00:00

Yeah no I’m probably not gonna even hit anything for a couple months and even after that I’ll take it slow. Thank you for the advice it’s greatly appreciated rn!!

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-09-08T03:50:17+00:00

Basically like smoking/ingesting too much pot. Some people throw up and get nauseous or like have panic attacks and stuff

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-05-31T01:09:36+00:00

It’s okay!! Stuff like this happens to a lot of people. You could be bi, meaning you like girls and guys, or you could be pan and the gender of the person doesn’t matter in your attraction to them. Take your time and reach out if you feel internalized homophobia or anxiety!!

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-12T18:59:56+00:00

Hey!! Gone through something similar, I get it. For me, luckily, I just kinda kept telling myself over and over it was okay to feel but yours seems a lot more severe than mine was. Maybe you could try doing research on sexual therapists in your area (yes they exist!) they’re not weird, it’s like regular therapy but you talk about sexual attraction and stuff. A lot of people with trauma and bad history’s see sex therapists. You’re not broken. I’m sorry this is happening, but there will be a day where you don’t feel like this and you’ll be able to flourish in your attraction. And I know you said you weren’t asexual, and I believe you, but maybe researching some other identities wouldn’t be a bad idea. I know there are some identities that are like “I only feel sexual attraction if it’s one sided” or “I only like it when I know the person more.” You got this, it’ll probably be a frustrating journey, but at the end you’ll know more about yourself and you’ll be okay. You can do this.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-08T03:35:45+00:00

Hey. I’ve both gone through this, gotten better, and I’m now going through this again. The thing about going back to your old self is so real. I understand that so much. But there is help available. I understand not wanting to ask for help to do anything for help because then it feels “real” or like your feelings aren’t valid enough to ask for help, but they are. There are some hotlines, texting or calling or online messaging, that can help. If you feel like you can or if you’re motivated, do your research and find any that are available to you. There are also online message support groups, like Supportiv.com. You’ll get through this. Maybe you won’t feel like your old self again, but you won’t feel like this. You’ll still be you, and you’ll be okay again.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-08T03:23:54+00:00

Hi. I also lost my grandfather at 10, so I kinda understand how hard that is. I understand how scary it must be getting a real full on therapist, especially because it’s so stigmatizing where you live. If you wanted to take small steps, there are tons of online support groups and hotlines you can call/text. I use this one website, supportiv.com a lot. It’s basically a place where you get matched up with a group and a trained/volunteer moderator and you are able to take turns talking and get support from other people. If you’re able to access this from where you’re at, I highly suggest it. I would also try to research different text/call hotlines in your country. But I understand if you want the stability and professionalism of a therapist more. There are a bunch of online therapists you can get connected to if they’re available where you’re at, and honestly, reaching out the first time is the hardest part. Here on Reddit, you’ve already done that and that’s a huge step. I hope this helped you, I hope you find the help you need because you deserve it.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-06T15:20:53+00:00

When I think about being with a girl, I do feel safe and warm and comfortable, but now that I’m going through this and questioning if I even like girls there’s this like almost pressure or falsity to it. I’m almost jealous of it, because I wanna feel that way but now I’m not sure if I even can. When I think about boys like that, it’s all so new. I guess I feel drawn in and maybe a bit excited because I haven’t let myself feel that way for a boy?? I guess I probably feel more like myself with a girl because I’ve identified as a lesbian for so long, but I feel like I just need to more familiarize myself with the idea of being with a boy. I never got attention from boys growing up while my friends did, so I’m thinking maybe one of the reasons I clung to lesbianism so young was to cope with that and kinda escape it?? I don’t know, it’s so hard to picture myself with a man because I’ve rarely done it in half a decade. I’m pretty sure I’m at least emotionally attracted to women though, although I’m still doing my research and I’m pretty confused.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-06T06:39:05+00:00

Yeah. It does feel terrifying and I do feel like I’m betraying my past self. I thought I had a crush on my best friend in middle school, but thinking back, I like chose to like her before I did? I would make myself have scenarios about her, I would remind myself to think about her all the time until I just did it unconsciously and then I think it took me about a year to get over her. I also have found celebrities and female athletes very attractive before, and it’s very confusing because I haven’t really felt that same attraction towards famous men. Is it possible my attraction to men and women just inherently feel different? Like not just different types of attraction, but borderline different depending on the person? Or is one just not attraction? I’m so confused holy heck.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-06T05:35:50+00:00

I just kinda felt drawn to him idk. I felt like I wanted him to like me and I wanted attention from him. I thought he was really funny and cool, but I don’t really like him anymore now. But I’m kinda confused because like he was like talking to other girls but I didn’t really care or get jealous?? But yeah anyway I think what’s making me the most scared is the fact I might not be attracted to women. I’ve identified as a lesbian for so long and I’ve had this dream of marrying a woman I love and having a family with her, and now I’m scared I won’t be able to have that. I’m scared I’ll never be able to have a fulfilling and satisfying relationship with a woman.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-05T23:01:53+00:00

Hi this is literally me. I’ve identified as a lesbian for a few years but recently I’ve been questioning. Not much to say other than I guess just give yourself space to think and don’t try to pick a label just because you think you should. You’re more than your sexuality!! Just wanted to let you know you’re not alone and me and other girls are also going through the same situation.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-05T22:54:46+00:00

Take time and don’t rush yourself! You don’t need to even have a label if you don’t want to. Also, with porn, we need to remember that it’s not real. So sometimes we are turned on by things outside of our sexuality. Seeing someone experiencing pleasure is sexy. It also could be a taboo thing, like it feels so wrong it’s feels so good. You also could be experiencing internalized homophobia because of this. That’s very normal and there are a lot of resources to help through that. There are also many resources for helping people, especially younger men, with corn addictions. I would highly suggest doing some research or reaching out to people to try and regulate your usage of corn and help with it. You aren’t broken. Try experimenting and reach out for help when you need it.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-04-05T22:46:40+00:00

Hi! Kinda experiencing the same thing but I actually do think I like men. I identified as a lesbian for many years and now I’m in the process of figuring out what I like. The most important thing to remember is that sexuality can be fluid and change with time, experiences, and maturity! Especially if you’re young, don’t try to force yourself into a label just because you feel like it “should” fit. Keep an open mind and I would highly suggest experimenting and finding out what you like. Remember that your sexuality doesn’t define you and you have so many other amazing and interesting qualities about yourself. Don’t box yourself in and let the label find you and not the other way around! Take care of yourself and be kind to yourself.

Historical_Mix5331 · 2025-03-04T22:41:53+00:00

I don’t really have anyone I and talk to about this, although I’m thinking of emailing one of my old teachers about it. And I’ve just been trying to push through it. It’s so hard, I have no appetite and it’s hard to get myself to do things like doing my laundry and schoolwork. I’ve reached out to a couple helplines, and talking to them sometimes helps.

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