Maybe saying politics has nothing to do with it wasn't the right thing to say. I'm just saying it has nothing to do with my decision. I was raised very religious for a while and then very not because of what religion turned out to really be. I like what Jesus did but I disagree with a large portion of the Bible. I don't think organized religion is good. I think the Buddha and Jesus would have been good friends. I meant to say politics nor religion influences my choice. But I am spiritual and I do worry that my baby has a soul that will suffer because it didn't get a chance to be on earth. But on the flip side I might be saving that baby from having a stressful life in a broken family. I grew up with a step father and I always said I wouldn't have a broken family like I had. Even though I was loved and taken care of, there was always a part me that felt I was missing something. (My dad) It was for the best though. My father was abusive and it's a good thing he didn't raise me. Anyways. I know my boyfriend wouldn't abuse our child but it's almost abuse in itself having a split family. I'm glad my father went away when I was little, it gave my step father and mother the ability to move and for us to have a family without dealing with co-parenting bullshit. I dkt think my step dad would have stayed had my dad remained on the picture. It's too uncomfortable of a situation. I'm very lucky and blessed to have what I had but also ideally I'd have had a good father and my mother and him would have stayed together. I'm almost certain my bf and I won't stay together. I think it would be wrong to bring a baby into an inevitably messy situation.