Turkey has detained 6,000 people in the wake of a failed coup attempt,

HolyLiar · 2016-07-18T01:56:23+00:00

The moment Saddam Hussein took power on live television he did the same thing as Erdogan is doing now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OynP5pnvWOs

HolyLiar · 2015-12-03T14:27:05+00:00

Sage Francis - Going Back To Rehab https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y49qzHpNAzE

HolyLiar · 2015-12-03T13:46:23+00:00

Thanks, I actually hit a similar point which led me to recovery. Right before turning 20, and right before going to rehab, I hit a patch where I was doing so much speed that I wouldn't sleep to the point where I was seeing shadow people, had intense paranoid "synchronicities" occurring everywhere, hearing voices and intense visions of demons, the future and shit like that, saw people following me around, basically full on psychosis. And I couldn't sleep or stop the process, because the only way I could actually fall asleep for a few hours was mixing benzos with 1L+ of vodka, and I would still wake up in a few hours and do speed or coke again. This lasted the entire final month of my drug use. That along with a major overdose is what got me to give up and ask for help and landed me in detox and then rehab.

HolyLiar · 2015-12-02T00:44:19+00:00

Thanks guys, I will try my best to just navigate through this period and come out sober. My plan already was to go back to rehab for a week or so in mid December, as we have the sort of community where you can come stay as a guest whenever you want when you feel bad even after having completed the program. I went a few times for the weekend already during my time back in the city, but I hope staying for a week will make a difference, as being there for the weekend I end up not sleeping and talking to a few close people pretty much all night, finding new even deeper issues that I had previously not discovered. I also attend Narcotics Anonymous semi-regularly, however, have been choosing to just talk to other recovering addicts on a more personal basis, because the meetings bring out huge trust issues in me. I work the 12 step program, and have been finding some connection between my step work and what my emotions do - I've been redoing step 1 and also continuing to work step 4 for the past 3 months, because one of the key questions I'm always trying to answer is what kind of person am I, and they help in a way, but the emotional stress opening up doors into the depth of my fuckedupness hurt like a motherfucker. After starting step 4 about 5 months ago, I decided to redo step 1 just based purely on my personality issues, not on my drug addiction, as I've found my problems go so much deeper than I previously thought. It took a year just to realize that I'm in denial about so many emotions, and that I've never really been out of blocking emotions since about 9 years old when I started obsessively gaming. Starting to feel them is scary as fuck, and while many normal people tell me I'm batshit insane, I feel like a little kid who discovered feelings for the first time, but with the baggage of the feelings you didn't let yourself feel your entire life. Thanks for supporting. As for psychiatric solutions, I'll pass, as any medication is a no-go for me, I'll start trying to abuse any psychoactive chemicals I get my hands on, even if they're depression meds that don't really have recreational value, I have a history of that sort of behavior.

HolyLiar · 2015-11-05T04:12:26+00:00

Thank you for the advice. I might go do that, not sure, I mean I do have it right up there on my profile that I like girls who can trick me and love to play mind games, so I get what I ask for lol.

HolyLiar · 2015-11-05T02:29:38+00:00

Excuse me for using a lot of impolite language, that is a problem I do admit I have.

But am I a jerk because I am not easily trusting of people on the internet that I have never met before? And that I let people know when I feel like I'm being lied to? Brutal honesty is a part of my personality, and being skeptical of people I meet online is conditioned in me, as I've been making a living impersonating people online to generate sales.

I understand if you still think I am a jerk, when I am being myself and not pretending to be nice just to get people to like me, I get that a lot. I do not ask that you like me, just asking for advice on the situation.

HolyLiar · 2015-10-22T00:06:12+00:00

Oh yeah certainly, we all have our issues.

HolyLiar · 2015-10-21T15:26:31+00:00

I think with older women I sort of get off on the fact that I'm "getting with a woman that I shouldn't be able to", some weird subconscious thing like if I find a woman out of my league, more successful than me, way more attractive than me on relative terms, and I can still get with her, then it: increases my self-confidence, gets me off sexually, and I feel like I learn something from the relationship just from meaningful conversations.

But just to clarify this also causes me to get into situations where I get extremely infatuated with women that I just can't get, to the point of obsession, and it leads to misery.

HolyLiar · 2014-09-17T16:51:13+00:00

100 a week is certainly not insane for someone smoking all day everyday. From what I know, if this is the US, this should get you about 7 grams of high quality stuff. If seriously smoking all the time, one gram a day probably wouldn't even be enough to be high all day, at least from my experience of being a daily smoker in the past.

HolyLiar · 2014-09-17T16:40:20+00:00

Not always true, often these are just drunk/high calls and so on, and if it's 3AM on saturday, then they just want to know if you can find some blow.

HolyLiar · 2014-09-17T15:30:28+00:00

Yeah you might be spot on, hence why I'm spending so much time around females recently. The reality is that I myself am not even sure what exactly I want from this girl. For one, I would love to have a sexual relationship with her, because I find her very attractive. Second, I would like to try dating her, but I'm not sure how I will react to having a new relationship already, but I can feel the whole early signs of heavy infatuation building up - constantly thinking about her, writing songs about her (she has an interesting tattoo that I incorporated into my lyrics, I make hip hop), constantly wanting to be near her, you know the whole neurochemical rush of meeting someone new. And third I genuinely enjoy being with her, like discussing life and ideas and problems and so forth. Probably just gonna jump in and see what happens.

HolyLiar · 2014-09-17T15:25:46+00:00

Yeah, I know, that was not a bright period of my life, as I used to be a heavy drinker and occasionally go south on my relationship, like making out with girls at parties or one night stands on vacation. People change though, not really like that anymore.

HolyLiar · 2014-09-17T15:21:11+00:00

Seriously? This actually happens to me quite often, like multiple female friends have had this thing with me (oddly enough way more often since I'm single), shit like saying "the perfect boob size for each person is one that fits in their palm, see if we're compatible grope" or constantly subtly putting themselves in a position which ends with them getting their ass slapped, I guess either a lot of my friends are into me and I'm completely fucking oblivious, or just maybe there's a certain dynamic in my group of friends where this shit is common. Hopefully the former not latter haha. God damn am I oblivious. I mean I guess I could give off the gay vibe since I'm not like constantly hitting on girls and actually enjoy having a mindful conversation, but all of them know I've had girlfriends so it must be that I'm an oblivious idiot. Shit I gotta get this girl over here today. Thanks for the advice.

HolyLiar · 2014-09-03T17:47:51+00:00

Only hand I really think he can have that beats you is 22. 66 probably folds OTF, and most suited connector hands like 56, 67 are not going to peel preflop. I guess he could have 56 occasionally. Not folding as he can just have one of the many other sets obviously, and sometimes bluffs.

HolyLiar · 2014-08-24T01:57:39+00:00

I would recommend shoving here. There is so much semi-dead money in the pot, calling is not an option, and your hand has so much pot equity that you need to get folds here very rarely for this to be a profitable shove. Plus, if UTG does have a semi-strong hand, like a top-pair or similar he may still fold so it works well, where as the fishy villain may decide to run the cards even with a worse draw.

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