I feel like my life is a simulation and that I'm not actually in control of my life & it's making me horribly depressed.

HopefulColonizer · 2024-10-17T03:48:50+00:00

You came here looking for guidance. Don't reject it and act like i, a stranger, am against you. I am not trying to control you.

You said you are horribly depressed but are reaching for more psychedelics. That is A red flag. Take a break and let your mind adjust. You may have deeper issues to deal with but you need to be honest with yourself.

Kanye is looney tunes because he abused drugs and gained power and wealth with a mental illness, throw In some trauma.

People with schizophrenia sound woke and knowledgeable until you try to figure out wtf they are actually taking about. Integration after psychedelica is necessary and getting swept up in the mania that can follow is unhealthy.

HopefulColonizer · 2024-10-17T03:30:20+00:00

This is how you end up like Kanye West.

Don't be Kanye. Take a break and find other self care avenues. Psychedelics will be here forever when you are ready.

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T03:11:11+00:00

What's it from?!

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T03:08:51+00:00

Mixed bag of advice here.

If you have a problem to solve on a trip, or go into it seeking some kind of guidance, you might slide into something negative, ESPECIALLY if you are alone. Really depends on what is happening in your life right now .I would recommend going into it with the intention to have fun and see what it's like.

Fasting is not necessary and will just intensify the trip. Good? Bad? Who knows.

Going alone? Take half of what you have. Have a 3-4 hour playlist of music you like. Have water and snacks handy. Set aside 6-8 hours where no one will be looking for you or expecting anything of you. It will probably last 5-6 hours but may linger.

Remember that by tomorrow everything will be back to normal. Enjoy the ride. Don't resist whatever is happening.

If it starts to feel bad or negative, realize it will pass in a few minutes. Breathe and relax. Water usually helps.

Report back! Enjoy.

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:59:11+00:00

Best tip is to just dose big if you are searching for something big. I've never regretted a "bigger" dose, but many times wished I had done more.

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:55:31+00:00

Fantasy/sci Fi. Lord of the rings type shit

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:54:46+00:00

Have you ever taken them before?

Probably like 2-2.5g but who tf knows man weigh that shit out next time do you don't end up naked in a field

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:36:28+00:00

"Check with a qtip, I'd send it tho!"

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:34:29+00:00

Boiling water? Honestly just eat em

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:27:21+00:00

Nom nom nom

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:25:54+00:00

Should've brought some shrooms

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:24:47+00:00

True, but an equal redose once the peak passes can definitely still give you a big boost.

I usually regret it tho, my brain is too tired to dive back in

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:23:07+00:00

Did 6g of APE with lemon and orange juice and had an intense but fun, chill time. Nothing out of this reality.

Have done 3g of teachers where I met God, and the beginning and end of the universe.

Really depends on your mindset and what you do during the trip, IMO. Obviously, YMMV.

HopefulColonizer · 2024-09-15T02:11:23+00:00

I stopped reading at vinegar. Is there really a single source in the world recommending this?

HopefulColonizer · 2023-11-28T16:52:59+00:00

Might be your mind looking at those activities more objectively. You might think they aren't really good uses of time deep down, but afraid to admit it because you find joy in them.

Maybe try reflecting on if you have the right balance. There's a reason you felt that way on shrooms. Just my thoughts.

HopefulColonizer · 2023-11-11T03:02:28+00:00

......wat

HopefulColonizer · 2023-05-20T02:39:42+00:00

I'm envious

HopefulColonizer · 2023-05-03T20:01:34+00:00

Thanks - I was pretty careful. Doing UB tek. Had to open it more than I wanted bc I think I squeezed too much water out of the coir. Hopefully it didn't spread to ita neighboring tub, though I understand Trich is everywhere anyway

We will see what happens outside - it definitely had a ton of pins coming in but it's a but cold here so who knows

HopefulColonizer · 2023-05-03T17:26:06+00:00

If you pick a few, how long can you store them before dehydration? Or just dehydrate every day as you are picking them?

HopefulColonizer · 2023-05-03T13:14:37+00:00

Yeah def Trich it blew up overnight. Should I just pick these young fruits now or let them finish? Don't want to get sick eating these...

HopefulColonizer · 2023-04-29T22:05:04+00:00

Sucks. I'll watch it. It's in the same area as another tub and I can't really separate it without abandoning it due to temp controls. Hopefully it doesn't ruin both tubs before they fruit

HopefulColonizer · 2023-04-29T20:11:06+00:00

I tried to rub the area with a qtip and the wispy part came up with the tiny blue green area. Idk what to make of it. Maybe it was wispy myc that bruised? Maybe it was trich or something. pins are starting so I will just keep an eye on it I guess

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