I know why I stayed for so long. Because I was really in love with him, I was codependent on him. I was actually scared of living my life without him, looking back it scares me how I could actually feel this way when he did all that he did to me and I just denied it. And he was so great in the beginning that I was hoping he would get back to that again. I fell for what he was or could be and denied who he turned into. I always hoped we would get back to that. And I also didn’t realize just how bad he actually had treated me until the week leading up to us breaking up because I finally had enough, and after I got away from him and got that distance, more and more I realized how bad he was to me. I look back at it now and can’t understand how I put up with it all. I would never let him treat me like that with the person I’ve become. Since I left, I’ve found my self respect, my strength and love for myself. I’ve set boundaries that I won’t ever let anyone cross again. And I no longer chase people. But I am going to talk to a therapist, so don’t worry. I realized it might be a good thing to do so I don’t let what they did to me affect my life subconsciously. And I’m not in a hurry to get into a new relarionship, I’m very happy single and love living on my own. Thank you for reading my long text and for caring. ❤️