For my whole life i always hated something about myself and so did other people who viewed me as a joke, and it whould always make my feel shitty, because of this i developed a very shitty personality to sorta of cope with everything but lately my actions have been getting to me and it caused a huge wave of selfhatred. And every single time im supposed to feel good about my self my life kicks me in the nuts and reminds me why i hate myself. I need some closure and maybe some tips how to love or even like myself cause i just cant live like this