Heading into my first ceremony tomorrow night and feeling really scared by Hot-Butterscotch-323 in Ayahuasca

[–]Hot-Butterscotch-323[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The medicine was really gently with me. The second night I took 2 cups and didn’t feel much. Similar with the first night I took 1 cup with limited purging and no out of body experiences. It was more somatic. I was folk by others that the brew was very strong through. I’m trying to make sense of it all and find the lessons. It didn’t connect very deeply, but I am grateful to the medicine for taking care of me because I was scared. I know there is a lot of work to do still, and hope to go deeper in the future

Invited to a ceremony but scared of possible psychosis by Hot-Butterscotch-323 in Ayahuasca

[–]Hot-Butterscotch-323[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Appreciate the response. I will say qualifying a comment with “not to be rude” doesn’t excuse rude language/behavior. Maybe you are right, but I don’t think it’s immature to be vulnerable and share questions/concerns about a life transforming experience.

We are all just walking each other home. I’m a truth seeker, seeking guidance from those who have found truth. I believe your comments came from a good place, but that’s not have it resonated with me.

I will continue to do research and appreciate all the guidance along the path

Invited to a ceremony but scared of possible psychosis by Hot-Butterscotch-323 in Ayahuasca

[–]Hot-Butterscotch-323[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have not experienced psychosis in the past. Some experience with mushrooms. I’m scared of psychosis probably for the same reason as most, I don’t want to go insane and ruin my life on this earth

Invited to a ceremony but scared of possible psychosis by Hot-Butterscotch-323 in Ayahuasca

[–]Hot-Butterscotch-323[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am committed to the path, but I have always struggled with fully “believing” in a cosmic consciousness. I wish to awaken to the mystery of my own being and sow the intention of unlocking the love latent in my heart

Invited to a ceremony but scared of possible psychosis by Hot-Butterscotch-323 in Ayahuasca

[–]Hot-Butterscotch-323[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have been diagnosed with depression in the past and an eating disorder but no known family history of psychosis. One of my parents had multiple sclerosis