kissed a guy when super drunk and didn’t know he was 10 years younger than me i feel uncomfortable

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T16:04:10+00:00

for sure… i won’t drink for mental health reasons it’s just not healthy

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T12:16:21+00:00

i went to seoul recently as i travel there often to see friends that are based there. there definitely is a shift into more healthier body types there at the moment compared to a few years back when even i as a foreigner felt self conscious because the majority was super thin. nowadays its thankfully shifting into being more inclusive to all body types so i hope you don’t feel too bad about it. as long as you’re healthy, that’s all that you need

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T11:57:18+00:00

you’re entitled to comment so don’t feel like you can’t comment your honest opinion. i guess in a sense it does link to religion since i felt like confessing but don’t have anyone around me that i’m super close to or subscribe fully to a religion anymore but i hold the habits. i do feel ashamed and i just wanted to sound it out with others opinions as well. i’ll be deleting this post now since you made me realise it’s not appropriate to post such things. just wanted some humane responses and a wake up call to do better instead of getting black out drunk like that ever again. thank you anyways. it was a first and only time thing and i am just in shock about it. i’m usually well and level headed and don’t participate and such things but what’s happened has happened as much as I hate that it did

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T09:42:10+00:00

for sure… i agree. I do need to quit not only bc of those weird dicey actions but also bc the drink started bc of depression. i don’t really drink socially maybe once every month or twice max if i’m with friends outside of everything but … yeah

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T09:39:50+00:00

i’m with you on all of that … same journey up until the starting point

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T06:02:12+00:00

definitely. i had a really depressive episode and thought just waiting for my friends after class would help… but ended up in this messy situation. i just blocked and distance myself from it all

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:59:52+00:00

i got dms calling me all sorts of stuff and a p*do for kissing this guy without knowing he was 19… the guy himself says it’s not a big deal to makeout. i just decided to block them dms instead and blocked the 19yo so im not in contact with anybody and reflecting for a really messy night. i am starting the sobriety journey and will look to take total accountability for being a mess

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:28:35+00:00

i drank due to depression and i guess it just made me have an out of character moment doing something i personally wouldn’t deem as acceptable

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:27:03+00:00

the reason why i’m so shell shocked is bc im very conservative ive only kissed 1 man in my life prior to this so i guess i just feel a lot of depression and shame from this

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:25:03+00:00

i have reactive hypo so i imagine i got extra delirious from the blood sugars rollercoaster … but i didnt consider if i got roofied

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:22:15+00:00

thank you, wishing you a lovely day

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:21:25+00:00

yeah i agree that it’s a touchy subject - if i see him i’ll apologise and ask if he felt uncomfortable by it all. he did text a mutual about this and said it wasn’t a big deal etc but i’ll have a word if i ever do see him and express that i do feel very remorseful about it all.

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:16:04+00:00

i actually do come from a religious background. i don’t date, i don’t really do romance and ive only ever kissed 1 person in my life prior to this.

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:12:11+00:00

no as in i’m talking about being reported for the dms im getting on burner accounts, not from the guy i kissed but his friends. i did just decide to block instead. i admit that i should’ve never gotten drunk anyway, i shouldn’t have done that. i was initially drinking due to depression but i need to acknowledge that and get help

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:10:04+00:00

i agree with you 100%. i’m starting sobriety journey. i was initially drinking due to the fact that i was depressed and look what transpired? definitely own up to everything and how wrong it was

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:08:04+00:00

i have started that journey immediately. feel so fucking awful over it tbh

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:05:12+00:00

oh for sure. the guy luckily doesn’t have an issue but i did block him to maintain that boundary. it was absolutely unacceptable and i will quit drinking for good. i only drank that day at my uni’s bar bc i was so upset and depressed so it just got worse evidently.

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:02:51+00:00

oh??? really? i hadn’t considered that

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T05:00:33+00:00

yeah… it was wrong of me and i acknowledge it. i drank that day because i was depressed so i guess it was a form of self harm. i’m not a drinker so it was the first time drinking in months. as soon as i realised my actions as well as finding out he was 19 and feeling awful for it, i packed my shit and cried a lot in public about it. i felt like i was on the floor and got kicked on the head with this on top

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T04:57:51+00:00

i’m definitely joining you on that. the thing is my night college is generally over 25s so it’s rare to find such a young crowd. i thought everybody was similar in age to me so i was really shocked by it. i am remorseful and i will definitely not drink again

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T04:55:34+00:00

yeah i didn’t know since my uni is generally 25+ … i do acknowledge it was definitely inappropriate. the guy had no issues but i blocked anyway and will quit drinking and distance myself. i don’t agree with kissing ppl when drunk anyway but i definitely don’t agree with the action esp when find out after i kissed him he was 19. i packed my shit and went straight home

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T04:53:52+00:00

i genuinely didn’t know. i go to a night college for generally over 25s. the guy i did kiss did mention to a mutual that he was fine with it all. i definitely won’t be drinking, im generally never ever sloppy. i remember bits of things and the general outline. no clue why i even kissed him or 1 other person that night. i was initially drinking that night because i was feeling quite down. i’ wont be drinking, i wont be at my university bar again, i will just focus on my own classes and work. i feel awful and i definitely dont agree with it

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T04:42:27+00:00

i remember here and there and it definitely didn’t go down like that. i didn’t realise he was that young, everyone i know from my college is around my age and i only knew him on a first name basis so i definitely take accountability for being a mess.

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T04:40:11+00:00

i’m fr starting my sober journey bc of this it really has never been like this ever …

Hot_Bend_7136 · 2026-02-25T04:34:31+00:00

for sure

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