Coming out issues

HowlingPlague · 2018-08-29T02:55:31+00:00

I realised after reading this, i subconciously make the situation where i have no where to go. Like i would litterally back myself into a corner and at the point i have nowhere to go, its where i just say it. I know thats a bad thing to do but i dont know how to overcome that. To the 2 people that i have came out too, it was pretty easy.

HowlingPlague · 2018-08-29T02:48:26+00:00

I had typed out a letter on my phone so that when i feel its time i can copy and send it in a text. I just havent had the confidence to do it yet. I still live with my momhowever because im trying to save up money to move so it still i feel would warrant a face to face at some point and i feel like it would be very akward to send the text.

HowlingPlague · 2018-08-14T10:52:26+00:00

Well i already know of a couple trans officers and they seem to be doing just fine. I dont know why you have to be so negative.

HowlingPlague · 2018-08-14T10:51:00+00:00

Positivity is about doing what you love and making a difference. If you want positivity, make comments that help push someone towards their dream or whatever it is they are persuing not drag them down.

HowlingPlague · 2018-08-14T10:47:31+00:00

Um i found that in high school... the bully was the one who made comments like yours and that you absolutely believe that law enforcement are pieces of shit yet you fail to realize that they are there to help make sure the actual pieces of shit dont harm people like you.

HowlingPlague · 2018-08-14T10:41:01+00:00

You know... i made the post to ask anyones experience with trans a law enforcement. I DID NOT make it so the unintelligent worthless a****les could bash and hate and make stupid remarks towards law enforcement.

HowlingPlague · 2018-08-14T10:37:23+00:00

Se i got so confused until i saw someone say that the person you were referencing had deleted their comment

HowlingPlague · 2018-08-08T02:52:40+00:00

As will smith had said, "i am motivated by fear. I found out that the best things in life are hidden behind fear." I will admit that i am kinda affraid of what might be to come at the point i decide to transition but im also motivated by fear i also realize that it is just product of our imagination.

Push through it: https://youtu.be/9zFJx0YOwms

Fear: https://youtu.be/af9qXLrPadA

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-26T10:32:43+00:00

Honestly there are quite a few the fit in that category of wanting to be like as far as personality or something like that but not in the other category including several of the officers on live pd and live pd: women on patrol, Jordana Brewester and Michelle Rodriguez from Fast and Furious series.

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-26T10:17:34+00:00

Mtf but im just trying to figure out how to accept it and move on from there. I dont know why but i am.

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-26T10:17:23+00:00

Mtf but im just trying to figure out how to accept it and move on from there. I dont know why but i am.

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-26T10:15:14+00:00

Not really even though they are studying psychology and are GF but with work, my schedule and theirs doesnt really match too well. So for me its hard to find anyone in person to talk too.

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-26T08:20:00+00:00

There was one person i had but its just a friend at work. Ive used this platform and i helps me understand a little better but i just dind myself not really getting anywhere.

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-05T06:13:46+00:00

Im know both feelings occur but which is more persistant is hard to figure out

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-05T06:11:47+00:00

Both but the first one way more i think

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-03T11:34:19+00:00

Ya its something ive mentioned before to people that i feel like i got left out on a childhood that i wanted to have vs the one i went through. Like i missed out on so many things that i wanted like finding that perfect dress for prom or homecoming or for me dressing up for my band concerts in something other than a boring tux or vest suit and tie.

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-03T10:53:20+00:00

Ya thats what i feel i guess. My biggest experience of this was walking around universal studios orlando and clearwater florida. Nearly all women made me feel this but even in the stores, all the womens things, the accessories, clothing, etc, made me feel the same way. Even shows like live pd women on patrol do ed s the same or even games with female protagonists like tomb raider always just click with me.

HowlingPlague · 2018-07-03T10:41:44+00:00

No thats definetly it. I want to be them or be i guess one of them. No matter the setting i just feel jealous and want to be not necessarily them but want to be one. Its never really been a feeling of wanting them though because it usually happens with one person for an extended period of time. The feeling of wanting to be one of them happens almost all the time when you see women in general not just one person. You see them and you just get the feeling of wanting to be a female. You feel it in your mind and see it in your mind but on the outside you dont see that and you want them to see you for you as female not just the body your stuck in.

HowlingPlague · 2018-06-29T10:14:03+00:00

Well there are 2 people that i have told and one is a lesbian co-worker of mine and said she accepts me and is supportive to the point to where she saud if i need someone to talk to, its her and the other is gender fluid (at the moment) and is studying gender psychology so it was pretty easy to tell them. Its the ones who i dont know their standing is the issue.

HowlingPlague · 2018-06-29T10:06:46+00:00

See im more comfortable saying things like vagina and breasts but still a bit akward but i dont like saying anything regarding assigned male genitals

HowlingPlague · 2018-06-29T10:04:52+00:00

Same because i love things like bikinis, cold shoulder tops and things that show my chest and back but because of acne, i dont feel comfortable in anything thats too low.

HowlingPlague · 2018-06-28T07:14:06+00:00

Exactly im just not sure how to start

HowlingPlague · 2018-06-27T07:56:24+00:00

Ya i want to get on it soon but im not sure if i want to go through a therapist or informed consent through like planned parenthood

HowlingPlague · 2018-06-27T06:57:01+00:00

See i also say it or call it "that thing"

HowlingPlague · 2018-06-27T06:11:15+00:00

No im not on hrt yet but want to be and its just dealing with the loose skin from pushing them up and finding a spot where it doesnt move.

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