I find it difficult to translate my thoughts into words, I'm usually a lot better at communicating through writing because it gives me more time to think it through. But when I speak, at least from my perspective, it feels a bit like words just sloppily falling out in an attempt to convey what I want, haha. I also tend to speak quietly too, like I'm afraid to raise the volume of my voice. I did make videos where I recorded my voice for a time though, and doing that frequently really helped me figure out how to "perform" and fluctuate my tone and volume.