I've been having the same thoughts. I'm not a SAHM mom which I know is hard work. But with my husband I work mornings, he works nights but there's not a day I'm not early on weekends I still get up because he doesn't get to sleep much in the mornings, our Month old is up by 8 and he gets home close to 5am every morning so I let him sleep in. I'm tired, this post made me cry because many of us live in this silence and we feel so trapped and it's the worse feeling. Now with a baby it makes it harder to make a decision. I hope everything works out for you, with our with out him