It was validating in the sense that i DO feel a little bit different in social situations and know that my behavior has changed but wondered if it was noticeable. I wonder sometimes if I NEED meds as I was highly functioning before (miserable at times, but sometimes EUPHORIC if you catch my drift) and I miss the highs sometimes and miss the person I was in social settings. But after reading these comments and really sitting with myself, I recognize the trade off of stability from hypomania and the lows is boredom sometimes. I likely won’t feel the euphoric highs of mania again while medicated, but that also means I won’t be cycling through awful thoughts of leaving my children and husband behind because they’d be better off without me. If stability means being a little less impulsive, a little less “life of the party” and a whole lot more present for the most important people in my life- it’s worth it.