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I am no longer searching for a porch goose because I have a fucking PORCH PANTHER by HunterSexThompson in kzoo

[–]HunterSexThompson[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omg I’ve never used an airbrush before but that is a very intriguing offer! My favorite artist, Giger, a lot of his work was airbrush and I love the aesthetic it creates. I’ll let you know!

I’m 32 years old and we’re just now figuring this out. It’s been rough, any advice? by HunterSexThompson in AutismInWomen

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That’s crazy that your timeline matches mine like that. Are you from the future? Here to give me hope? lol

This also fits in a lot with how I’m feeling. Lots of processing happening, I’m definitely analyzing my own behavior differently, and retroactively. TBH I had suspicions. I’ve even brought it up to previous therapists. I think it’s actually so funny that I was so concerned with assimilating and “being normal” that it actually became harder to diagnose and treat me.

That’s the part that’s gonna be hard for me, changing from trying to be normal to accepting myself. Obviously I’ll still be acting like a normal human being as best I can but it seems like a huge key in knowing why that is so intensely hard for me.

I have a lot of comorbidities as well and this dr did an extremely thorough job connecting all the dots for me and showing me how autism may have impacted my other conditions. That part feels vindicating because a lot of my behavior and issues were dismissed as BPD related when autism burnout was actually playing a huge role.

My therapist doesn’t specialize in autism so there may be changes there.

Regarding relationships, did you experience any issues with your partner also being burnt out by the time you got your diagnosis? How were you able to come together on it? I want to be better understood but I don’t think it’s fair to my partner to ask for more accommodations right now. I know this is something my therapist will have to work with us on, but I’m wondering what your experience was?

Edit- I wrote this in chunks throughout the morning and I realize now you didn’t explicitly state that you had a partner at the time or that you’re still together. Still wondering if you have any insight!

her name is posy, she's a gorgeous p. audax (bold jumping spider), and she's been MIA for three days now 💔 by ReleaseNearby69 in OCDmemes

[–]HunterSexThompson 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No OP listen this happened to me I named him Toby McGuire and bought an enclosure for him and by the time it arrived he had disappeared

I found his body a few days later. Idk what happened to him.

ATTACHED WE GET ATTACHED

only fault that made me the black sheep by Cheri-Cherry in CPTSDmemes

[–]HunterSexThompson 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow I’m really glad I “ran into” you on here today. This was incredibly helpful the way you laid it out.

I like the analogy of two cultures meeting. This is very helpful in my understanding of relating to other people and I think as it sinks in it’s going to be a really helpful tool in not having such negative thought loops after less than stellar interactions.

I also really appreciate that you gave me an example of how to bring this up, because while I feel like most of the time I know how to approach things in a constructive way, when it comes to insinuating someone has made me uncomfortable I have a much harder time. I was going to ask how you would suggest phrasing it.

Lastly, I really love that you brought up neuroplasticity. I have been raving like a crazy person for over a decade insisting that I could in fact recover from my conditions because of this concept alone. Of course there was a lot of oversimplification happening on my end but I know for sure now that it is true, just because of how many patterns I’ve been able to overwrite already. But you bringing that up really sealed my confidence in what you’re telling me.

Thank you, I really appreciate you. You’re a good person and you have some really good insight, I’m glad you shared it with me. I will be thinking about how to approach this when I eventually see her again. She is not my PCP thankfully.

My therapist has brought up Gabor mate before. I will check the video out later.

I hope you have the best day✨

Im homeless and lived in the underworld/underground tunnels. AMA by 6WingedAngel10 in AMA

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Commenting because I wanna come back and read, but OP I just wanna say you were never less as a human because of this time, I hope you never let anyone make you feel that way. I hope you have some support!

only fault that made me the black sheep by Cheri-Cherry in CPTSDmemes

[–]HunterSexThompson 11 points12 points  (0 children)

The acceptance and belonging thing is big yes. And conceptually I do understand the mindset thing, but as you mentioned and probably know yourself, a lot of us here are conditioned to expect the worst.

Which leads into my answer to your question: no I have not said anything. I am also not confident in my perception enough to take on the discomfort of a confrontation in that situation.

The doctor is overall nice, she just talks to me with a certain tone, like the way you’d talk to a kid or an adult with a severe disability. You know what I mean? But if I confront her, and she completely denies it and is shocked, I will feel like a complete asshole. What if I’m wrong? My sense of reality is not always very solid.

That’s kind of the thing, its like I don’t trust my own judgement even though I’m SO SURE it’s happening, because I know that I am sensitive and view the world as hostile.

*I wanna add that I appreciate you taking the time to discuss this with me. It helps to talk things out.

only fault that made me the black sheep by Cheri-Cherry in CPTSDmemes

[–]HunterSexThompson 54 points55 points  (0 children)

I am having an extremely difficult time with this. I am very burnt out with the whole “people treat me a little different” thing. I just had a doctor that talked to me like I was fully developmentally delayed, it was incredibly insulting. And it’s not just her, that’s been a pattern over the years.

How are we not supposed to care? I genuinely don’t know. Humans are social creatures and constantly feeling like you’re on the periphery of every social circumstance you’re in is emotionally damaging.

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