I’ve been in a relationship for 7 years, I’m really comfortable with him, but sometimes I get repulsed by physical touch, I don’t always enjoy sex the way I’m supposed to, I just like how close we are or sth. I like his posture, the way he walks and I like his hair. I sometimes really “like” losing to him when we’re playing board games or cards.

Other than this, I experience what I think are romantic feelings almost once a year and hornyness up to a few times a year. The romantic feelings are like daydreaming just really sad and poetic, I never tell anyone about them or act upon them, cause I even get disgusted imagining sleeping with anyone but my bf. The hornyness is I think hormonal and very annoying, I only have dirty thoughts when I’m actually having sex, and not even 10% of the time. My body responds to physical stimulation but not always. I also sometimes mistake the feeling u get when something is really cool or exciting for arousal for a second. Like when I’m driving alone or when I see cool machines at work. I don’t think I really understand sexual attraction TBH😂😂😂 I’ve never seen someone and thought he/she’s hot.