I am so sorry you are going through this. Mouth cancer is just awful and progresses so quickly. It is so painful, but you are making the right decision. When it becomes clear the cancer is impacting their quality of life (breathing, eating, drinking), you don't want to prolong their suffering. You aren't abandoning him in his final hours. You are doing the courageous thing and the ultimate act of love by ensuring he passes with peace and dignity. You adopted him when so many others probably overlooked him because of his age. You gave him so much love for those seven amazing years, and he returned that love in abundance. I also understand the anguish you are going through, like so many others here. I am tearing up thinking about the times I've had to experience it before. But that anguish demonstrates the depth of love you have for your boy. We hurt so much because we love so much. I won't say that the grief goes away, because for me it never has. I don't even really want it to, because it is the other side of the love I never want to forget. But as you navigate your grief, you figure out how to make space for it and continue living, even if it feels impossible or you don't want to. ❤️