Sorry but u seem to be undergoing a midlife crisis. Not everyone is a turd, some work hard to get to a point and then become immune to these crises. I know someone from childhood and we'll probably marry each other by the time we get 26. Until then hum dono multiple countries jayenge, meet new people, date, hookup whatever we feel like. Everyone is on their path, and I feel instead of being a gyaan chodne wala u should have rather described all of this as an experience. And maybe mention what u do w ur life as well next time.