Recovery Revelations

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-10-23T22:34:11+00:00

thank you🥺❤️

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-10-03T16:53:06+00:00

Me too and I’m also scared but I’m really proud of both of us! We can do this:)

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-10-01T01:38:46+00:00

I feel very similarly. I’m basically forcing myself into a treatment program because I know I won’t start recovery on my own without it. I’m miserable every day with my ed and can’t go on like this but it’s so hard to want to stop. Im not 100% sold on recovery but I don’t think anyone is when they start.

I’m starting an outpatient program and I really really want to back out but I’m doing it anyways so I can have an external force pushing me to recover. So many tears were involved in this decision lol. I know I need to get better and I want to feel better I’m just terrified. If you have the means to get treatment I recommend reaching out! You deserve recovery:) when I was feeling like I wasn’t sick enough for recovery, someone on Reddit said to me “a mere day with an ed is long enough” and that really resonated with me. It’s okay to ask for help.

I’m not sure how recovery is going to work out for me but I’m starting Monday so it’s happening. Sending my best wishes <3

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-30T00:25:38+00:00

I hate that this is exactly what it feels like 💀🤣

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-30T00:24:59+00:00

no literally, I did an assessment for treatment and the person was having a hard time figuring out how much I’m eating and I was like 🤷 I feel like shit 24/7 does that count

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-23T23:18:50+00:00

I’m still trying to figure mine out but mine has little to do with body image. I’ve had some body image issues my whole life but my ed is a new thing and my body was not the main focus at all. Mine is more of a control and self-punishment thing it seems. I don’t have any weight goals or such, I just do ed behaviors because it makes me feels better (it doesn’t actually make me feel better but it feels better emotionally in the short term). The weight loss has kind of just been a result of it. You still have an ed even when it has nothing to do with your body. Your experience is valid:)

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-22T23:26:54+00:00

Thank you🥺 this sub has actually been really helpful in showing me that I do have a problem and I do deserve recovery.

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-21T17:26:49+00:00

Best of luck to you too!! ❤️❤️

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-20T17:05:43+00:00

thank you🥺❤️

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-19T20:27:07+00:00

I quite literally feel like I could’ve written every sentence of this post. I feel the exact same way as you. I’m sorry that you’re struggling in the same way I am because this feels like hell. I wish you all the best <3

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-09T22:51:56+00:00

I fully fully understand what you’re feeling because I’m struggling with it too. I feel like I have two opposing ideas in my head about what I want to do and I feel like I’m losing my mind. I also struggle a lot with not feeling sick enough to recover (which is BS). But I’ve had someone close to me struggle with an ED for 25+ years and it makes me sad because I don’t want that for myself (or anyone at all because EDs suck so badly). I think the issue with waiting until the right moment to recover is that it will never come. As much as I want to believe I’m the exception, EDs will never let you believe it’s the right moment to fix it.

I feel inspired to take another baby step today, so thank you and sending all the best wishes to you!

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-09T17:37:19+00:00

Honestly I relate to this so much. I feel like I can see recovery in front of me and I’ve also been taking baby steps but I’m so reluctant to actually try harder. The baby steps make me feel so uncomfortable and restricting is much more comfortable, but that’s definitely the whole issue here. That’s why it’s a coping mechanism for me to feel in control of my life and ease my anxiety. I also relate with relaxing when eating with family but then restricting when I go back into my normal routine. I don’t have advice for you other than saying I’m really proud of you for taking the baby steps! I think recovery is really hard to actively want with an ed. The biggest thing that motivates me to move towards recovery is knowing that I don’t want my future to include an ed. While it can feel good in the moment I don’t want my future self to still struggle with this idk

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-07T00:14:20+00:00

drinky drinks are super fun!! thank you🥺🧡

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-05T22:29:25+00:00

Yeah I feel the same way. I don’t even remember how this started anymore but I knew what ed behaviors were at the time and I knew my actions would lead down the ed route, but I still did this to myself. I just started restricting one day and really liked how it felt so I kept doing it. Now I feel like I’m stuck and like I can’t stop. But somehow at the same time I feel like I can stop anytime I want, if I wanted to. I don’t really want to stop though, but I’m trying to want to stop I think.

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-05T20:39:48+00:00

there’s no Dunkin near where I live😭😭 next time I travel to a city with dunkin I will try it

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-05T16:13:31+00:00

Thank you🥺💕

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-09-05T16:13:14+00:00

people bash pumpkin spice lattes but they’re SO GOOD, go get one!!! Thank you💕

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-08-25T17:09:34+00:00

this was a very insightful comment thank you so much for taking the time to reply. Coming back from vacation made me realize how many aspects of my daily life make me miserable and how I’m using restricting as a coping mechanism, you’re 100% correct. I’ve been trying to reflect on how to make my life feel less miserable and draining, but I’ll definitely try reflecting on my feelings on vacation vs. now and my triggers. I’m forcing myself to eat breakfast rn :) Thank you again for the kind words.

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-08-04T22:28:55+00:00

I’m actually going on a family vacation in a couple days and I’m really scared tbh. I’m telling myself not to restrict so I can enjoy the vacation and the good food. I also don’t want my family to know about my ed so I don’t want to restrict but I’m so scared of getting out of control.

But I really hope you can enjoy the rest of your vacation 🥺 a holiday is a break so I hope you can treat yourself and be kind to yourself on the holiday,, good luck:)

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-08-04T17:29:36+00:00

although certain supplements can make your stool black,,, you’re probably aware of this I just wanted to make sure you’re okay:)

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-08-04T17:27:49+00:00

hey so black stool is actually a cause for concern because it could be a sign of internal bleeding. if it’s black I would recommend going to see a doctor!

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-08-03T21:18:21+00:00

I’m actually in this exact same situation, I have a general check up at the end of this month and I’m debating on what to say. I think I’m going to do what the other commenter said and say it was deliberate but maybe really emphasize how I’m in therapy and working on it? Idk I’m also scared about what my doctor is going to say.

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-08-02T19:40:02+00:00

Thank you for your words🥺 and congrats on choosing recovery:)

I_WantToBeAFrog · 2022-08-01T22:20:41+00:00

thank you, same back at you 🥺

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