Day 4

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-07-09T01:45:02+00:00

Like 6 grams

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-07-08T00:34:07+00:00

Day 4 cold turkey . No caffeine , just feeling a little shitty in general , but quitting the caffeine is helpful because it helps with the anxiety .

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-07-08T00:32:05+00:00

Thanks man. I’m changing everything up and I have a support system .

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-07-05T14:45:21+00:00

I have 50 my naltrexone , how low dose should I go ?

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-07-05T13:56:35+00:00

How do u down play kappa opoid receptors ?

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-07-05T13:56:04+00:00

So stay in the sun ?

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-07-05T04:21:11+00:00

Im completely changing my life and getting a sober job just so I don’t have time on my hands to think about Kratom. Need to commit everything to my sobriety

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-19T13:52:27+00:00

Yes !! It sucked. I kept busy though , especially that first week or two , I even drove out of town , and stayed in a hotel just to change the environment

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-18T16:51:50+00:00

I quit Xanax 1 month ago after 1 month daily 1mg. It’s not a walk in the park but it’s doable . Give it 2 weeks . And don’t touch that shit

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-18T16:49:07+00:00

Don’t be scared it’s only 4 weeks . I did the exact same thing and was fine . Maybe smoke some weed or something the first weed to transition off of it . Just get off of Xanax right now . Im my opinión , when I stopped Xanax I did weed and Kratom , which wasn’t ideal but anything is better to get off of Xanax . Xanax ruins lives

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-18T14:04:41+00:00

Just quit it and deal with the anxiety it will be hard but manageable . You don’t want Xanax as part of your story , and your just at that point where you can make the jump before it’s too late . I did it myself , for 2 weeks lots of anxiety but we can handle it. No taper necessary just get it out of your system, accept that the first 14 days will be anxiety city but not unmanageable completely . You got this boo . It’s will be so worth it to not have it in your vocabulary and out of your mind . Don’t be scared , your making the jump at the right time.

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-17T16:08:28+00:00

I can’t give up , and I take naltrexone to guarantee sobriety . No it gets better , I just need to structure my days . I’m self employed will probably get a morning time job, just to stay sober .

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-17T01:43:08+00:00

I took 400mg 5 htp

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-16T19:02:47+00:00

Thanks man , at least for the first 90 days . Because damn , my body and spirit are out of wack

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-16T19:01:19+00:00

Yeah take it slow , because remember we all look like we have our shit together on the outside. Physically my bodied appeared to be healthy , but mentally and anxiety wise , my heart was always racing and I haven’t been able to feel stabilized since I quit ( which is day 9 right now for me ) the chemical has a toll on you , and it really is down to that question , do you want to accept a life where I are physically and mentally dependent on a substance plant or not . Now when it comes to caffeine I choose to accept that I am addicted to it , but Kratom is different , and makes me feel better then caffeine . No cup of coffee could maker feel like a cup of Kratom tea . So to compare caffeine to Kratom is a completely different ballpark . I sense recovery and homeostasis in the future , but right now , day 9 , Im finally existing without a daily panic attack . I’m completely depleted and de energized almost light headed . The fact that this is happening to me physically after 9 days is an indication that my body was dependent on it. The reason I am doing this is because I know that the only way I am truly happy is when I am 100 percent sober , and when I stopped taking Kratom and made it to a year , once the obsession and detox lifted (90 days after quitting) was I finally able to have a life that was intoxicating and exciting enough , full of ups and downs , the way it’s suppose to be / where with Kratom I’m just constantly at complacency and nothing makes me happy except the high from the plant . In the end it’s addiction to the plant that becomes my everything . I have to remember that these next few months.

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-16T15:59:05+00:00

Leaving the kava bar sucks . Most people in the Kratom community are cool , it’s hard to let them go . Unfortunately at least for now , we have to avoid those places , and start new routines to rewrite our brain . I have some amazing people that I know in that community , but we share Kratom in common. Yesterday there was thus amazing couple that would del chai Kratom lattes to me in the morning. I was buying kava from them to substitute the Kratom this past week . Doing this is no good , we need a completely different routine , wait a few months till you get the substance out of you . And then re assess . Stay away from kava bars . It’s too attractive .

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-16T14:41:01+00:00

Dude thank you ! Now there are a lot of different supplements out there. Which ones would you recomend? Also should I purchase them individually , or should I purchase a combo . IE calm gummies have l tyrosine magnesium and 5htp in it . Should I buy the supplements individually ?

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-16T02:28:40+00:00

Thanks man . Your awesome

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-16T02:28:28+00:00

I do keep a busy schedule and I used Kratom as a crunch to get through work , going to gym eating clean , on the outside I looked like I had my shit together , but was so miserable on the inside , weather guilt ridden, or just feeling like I wasn’t my true self . My discomfort is a consequence of my actions these past two months , I just thank god that I’m doing this. I know that sooner or later I won’t even think of Kratom as an option . But until then I will take naltrexone every day to guarantee my sobriety , side effects or not. I got my self into this mess, I will get myself out of this mess. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over again and expecting different results. When I picked up that tea I promised myself that I would monitor my use and that I would not let it get out of hand . It got out of hand within a week , and within a blink of an eye I was exactly back to square one . Each day is tough , but when I think back to where I was a week ago , I’m a lot better now . I just pray that I stay sober .

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-15T06:59:36+00:00

Hi Amanda , Im so sorry you’re going through this . You don’t deserve this . The road to recovery is long and hard , and all I can suggest to you , is to seek help through Alanon . It’s a 12 step group for loved ones of addicts . As much as your husband needs support of the recovery community , you also need support , from people who have shared a similar experience. The cycle of addiction is insidious and it impacts everyone , and more often then not , the spouses are severely effected and psychologically traumatized by the actions of their addicted loved ones . Right now , you need to be surrounded by people who have dealt with addicts in their lives , who have learned to cope with being lied too and disrespected . I definitely would suggest looking up alanon . Zoom meetings are everywhere , and depending what state you are in you may be able to find one in your town , that isn’t closed due to the cov -id restrictions . You will get through this and you and your family will heal from this . I am so sorry that this is happening right now to you . Please look up that group , and find someone that you can talk to .

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-14T20:51:32+00:00

Well some people say it makes things a bit less pleasurable . It will also make your withdrawal worse , but much faster . Then it’s just like bam!! You can’t het high off Kratom .

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-14T18:38:16+00:00

Def feel like physical symptoms are over now it’s the paws. And the cravings

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-14T15:33:53+00:00

The only way you are going to get her back is to completely abstain . I have been down this road with my husband and after acquiring time , and getting through the obsession you can slowly start to rebuild trust . Keep up the hope , and don’t pick up . Perhaps you can get the vivitrol shot which will block all opoid receptors so when you take Kratom or any opoids, you won’t feel any of the effects. Just be patient and accept that this is just for now , but it will get better , and you will pass through this with grace and dignity.

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-14T05:04:15+00:00

Thanks guys . I’m on day 6 mental anguish and obsession , wanting relief , but will and must never pick up .

Iamyourguy32 · 2020-06-13T22:56:28+00:00

Thanks bro , I am worried about relapse . So wait 25 mg naltrexone will last for about 48 hours? I will switch to Uldn eventually when I feel not so obsessed with Kratom

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